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I don't know if what I'm feeling is real. I've been really depressed the past couple weeks more so this last week because of a bad phone call with my parents on Easter, so my self-esteem is basically non-existent. I've always had kind of a sixth sense when it comes to my man being in danger of straying. There is a girl at a local convenience store and he's already told me she's flirted with him, he's told me that about other girls and I think he does it just to see my feathers ruffle and feel desired by me. We went there together yesterday and he was acting all weird, there was pleasant chatting, and when we got back to the car he had a big smile and said, 'she's always nice to me.' I can't tell if I'm reading too much into this because I'm already down. He's acting the same around me, except I think he knows something is wrong with me and he doesn't know how to help so he either gets irritated or tries to make me laugh. I've never really held back my feelings from him so I understand his irritation but I'm afraid to say anything because I think, or at least I want to think, its all in my head. Even so I don't know how to bring it up since I didn't when it happened.
On a good note, my kitty saved me from a spider... Go Super Muffin!
On a good note, my kitty saved me from a spider... Go Super Muffin!