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You know that feeling where you have nothing to do but you think there's something you should be doing and you don't know what it is and the more you think about it the guilter you get but you still can't figure out what it is so eventually you just give up and fuck around on the internet for hours?
Yeah. That.
And I'll probably read the paper later, too.
I had a dream last night (at least, I think it was a dream) where I had to do something vaguely magical that I knew would change my life forever and I wasn't sure if I wanted to do it or not. A globe was involved, but I think that was leftover from a story I read last night. I hesitated and I'm not sure if I acted. I woke up still feeling like I needed to make a decision. It reminds me of Beltane where I made a promise to myself that I would make a change in my life. And I've been trying and some things have definitely changed for the better, but I guess this is a reminder that I need to kick some things into high gear.
I need to devote more effort into the spiritual stuff too. I guess I've been slacking at that because I'm lazy and I've been lazy for so long it feels like I'll be starting from scratch. And I wish my freaking job would give me Sundays off so I could go to Becoming events. And I wish I remembered to check in their schedule more. Just RSVP'd for the Saturday thing and may not be able to go since I'm after deadline. Alas, alack, I'm a sillyhead.
I just wish things were a little bit easier sometimes.
Yeah. That.
And I'll probably read the paper later, too.
I had a dream last night (at least, I think it was a dream) where I had to do something vaguely magical that I knew would change my life forever and I wasn't sure if I wanted to do it or not. A globe was involved, but I think that was leftover from a story I read last night. I hesitated and I'm not sure if I acted. I woke up still feeling like I needed to make a decision. It reminds me of Beltane where I made a promise to myself that I would make a change in my life. And I've been trying and some things have definitely changed for the better, but I guess this is a reminder that I need to kick some things into high gear.
I need to devote more effort into the spiritual stuff too. I guess I've been slacking at that because I'm lazy and I've been lazy for so long it feels like I'll be starting from scratch. And I wish my freaking job would give me Sundays off so I could go to Becoming events. And I wish I remembered to check in their schedule more. Just RSVP'd for the Saturday thing and may not be able to go since I'm after deadline. Alas, alack, I'm a sillyhead.
I just wish things were a little bit easier sometimes.