Gnar
"As it was, everything made perfect sense.
Every peace fits, and nothing is left unturned.
The truth is, life just sucks."
So, after taking a risk, my car seems to be running decently.
I mean, it still eats gas, not as much as a savings as I was hoping, but long as it does the trick.
Right?
Well, turns out my mother went into the ER thursday night with extream pains in her back and side and they did a catscan, found some huge dark spots around her left kidney...so they send her home. Wonderful right? First they thought it was kidney failur, but the test say they are still working. So that's good. She's still laid up, feels like crap and shouldn't be left alone, but i have class. The hell am I suppose to do? I really have no clue. *Sighs*
So I'm extreamly low on funds, this happens with mom, my computer decided to refuse to connect to the net and i am having cronic headaches and areas on my body are sensitive and feel pain easily...oh and a mucle knott from hell in my calf. Joy, yes be greatful for a life that is not worth it, yes?
Soooo, I get to see here and think and worry and stress.
While fucking mental midgets next door play their crap ass music loud, smoking lord knows what, running around like chickens with their dicks cutt off and having a good time. Yet, I'm the one taking care of my mother. I'm the one trying to get a better life, and these fuck tards sit around all day laughing and blinding themselves with false enjoyment.
Fuck I can't sleep well with all this stress, I just keep expecting mom to say "take me to the hospital." paranoia or something, though this last time she really did call me out to fix her chair.
Damn it, I really don't think I could stand to take care of another dieing person I care for, done it once all ready, I'm too fucking young for all this. *Sighs* I really don't wanna end up like my mother though, no one with her and all. Terrible that is. Just so tired and stressed and...fuck, someone just shoot me.
So needless to say, no pissing me off for a while, I might bite and not in a good way.
Every peace fits, and nothing is left unturned.
The truth is, life just sucks."
So, after taking a risk, my car seems to be running decently.
I mean, it still eats gas, not as much as a savings as I was hoping, but long as it does the trick.
Right?
Well, turns out my mother went into the ER thursday night with extream pains in her back and side and they did a catscan, found some huge dark spots around her left kidney...so they send her home. Wonderful right? First they thought it was kidney failur, but the test say they are still working. So that's good. She's still laid up, feels like crap and shouldn't be left alone, but i have class. The hell am I suppose to do? I really have no clue. *Sighs*
So I'm extreamly low on funds, this happens with mom, my computer decided to refuse to connect to the net and i am having cronic headaches and areas on my body are sensitive and feel pain easily...oh and a mucle knott from hell in my calf. Joy, yes be greatful for a life that is not worth it, yes?
Soooo, I get to see here and think and worry and stress.
While fucking mental midgets next door play their crap ass music loud, smoking lord knows what, running around like chickens with their dicks cutt off and having a good time. Yet, I'm the one taking care of my mother. I'm the one trying to get a better life, and these fuck tards sit around all day laughing and blinding themselves with false enjoyment.
Fuck I can't sleep well with all this stress, I just keep expecting mom to say "take me to the hospital." paranoia or something, though this last time she really did call me out to fix her chair.
Damn it, I really don't think I could stand to take care of another dieing person I care for, done it once all ready, I'm too fucking young for all this. *Sighs* I really don't wanna end up like my mother though, no one with her and all. Terrible that is. Just so tired and stressed and...fuck, someone just shoot me.
So needless to say, no pissing me off for a while, I might bite and not in a good way.