Spring has sprung
Went outside today. Got up pretty early (for me anyway) and drove around the valley with Luci. It was nice. I got a little sun and it felt good to have some fresh air. We eventually made our way down to the park. It was relatively crowded for a friday, but I was not too worried. Found a good spot, parked, and then walked about two blocks to the park. It was here where I saw at least 6 pregnant ladies. All about to pop. The funny thing is, the women were not too much older than I was. It blows me away to see people starting families so young these days. All just housewives making babies. Gross.
Overall today was a pretty nice day. Not too bad. I think I am getting overly worried about small things. I keep feeling that a few of my friends have or are using me when we hang out, and I never like that feeling. My walls are starting to go back up and I am becoming uncomfortable around people again. Self esteem has been better too. Spring is a freaking weird season.
I did come to one conclusion about why I have been feeling the odd one out lately. I think it is because I lack the feeling of something familiar. I am in ashland, by myself, without friends or immediate family. I made the choice to move here, and I do not regret it. But there is still the empty feeling of not having something familiar near by. I grew up in the same surroundings, always had the same friends, always had my family, and now most of that is gone. There is a piece missing.
But, only a week left until my 21st, my parents visit, TMNT, and spring break.
I just hope I can make it through finals week.
Als
Overall today was a pretty nice day. Not too bad. I think I am getting overly worried about small things. I keep feeling that a few of my friends have or are using me when we hang out, and I never like that feeling. My walls are starting to go back up and I am becoming uncomfortable around people again. Self esteem has been better too. Spring is a freaking weird season.
I did come to one conclusion about why I have been feeling the odd one out lately. I think it is because I lack the feeling of something familiar. I am in ashland, by myself, without friends or immediate family. I made the choice to move here, and I do not regret it. But there is still the empty feeling of not having something familiar near by. I grew up in the same surroundings, always had the same friends, always had my family, and now most of that is gone. There is a piece missing.
But, only a week left until my 21st, my parents visit, TMNT, and spring break.
I just hope I can make it through finals week.
Als