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[kesler]

I think holidays are the worst time to try and fix anything.. or make an apology or something, I don't know. I mean you want to be all in the spirit and cheerful but I'm not really feeling the Christmas spirit returning from me. Maybe it's an American thing, I don't know the guys up north that well

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[jasonking]

maybe when we both get home it'll be better? I was kinda thinking this had been a pretty good visit actually. Sorry you're bored and stuff. It's not always going to come back to the same stuff you know, not forever.

[kesler]

I'm not saying it's a bad visit, it's just how I feel right now.

[jasonking]

*nods* no I get that. heh I kinda wish I had of read this one before I posted mine? Maybe we can make it go away? And work on stuff the next time I get to come home? I dunno, but something maybe. Yeah.

[kesler]

I'm not really worried about it, it just bothers me you know?

[jasonking]

if you want to just not deal with any of it, I guess we can try that or something.

[kesler]

Pushing it back until Christmas and family is out of the picture would be nice.

[jasonking]

sure

[kesler]

If you really don't want to, it's fine with me you know. If it's too awkward to do it, I'm really okay with that Jason.

[jasonking]

no, last thing i want is to make things worse, if this is better, then its better. I can deal with whatever

[kesler]

I just don't want you to feel.. like I'm forcing you to do this, you have a choice too.. I can understand that the whole sweeping under the carpet thing isn't really the best idea, but everything's going good and I don't like having to worry about what's gonna go wrong or something..

[jasonking]

I just... dont know if its going to get better if we don't deal? you know, like, yeah I don't know. God I promised myself I wasnt going to be such a push over and its the first thing I do. I just I'm not over stuff but I'm working hard. God maybe Lee's right as much as I hate saying that.

[jasonking]

wait... there's family coming and stuff?

[kesler]

.. when have we not had family during Christmas? umm..

[jasonking]

yeah, I just waasnt thinking. of course we will. Uh blond moment?

[kesler]

I'm blonder than you are dork.

[jasonking]

maybe sweden is rubbing off on me?