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well i hope everyones st. patricks day went fine and that you all drank responsibly- for those of you who did drink.
i did alot of thinking recently and realized a lot about the people around me and about myself. and i realized that some people who i thought were my close friends were only my friends when it's convienient for them. so i did something today. i called everyone whom i had doubts in and saw what they were up to and to see how the approached the question. i even went out of my way to tell a few of them that i missed them. but in the end i got the same expected response. so, it made me realize alot.
i also realized that i care too much. yes, as morgen said- i sound like a sleazy politician. but i do care too much. i am always there for people. when they call me, and i'm in the middle of dinner and they sound like they need to be cheered up, i'm there for them. when they tell me something is up, i take time out for them. and i just dont see the same equal treatment in return from a majority of my "friends".
and then there are those people whom i haven't talked to in a while and they just come back into my life. and sometimes i like it and sometimes i hate it. last night, i hated it. morgen and jess know why. i dont feel like going into it.
in general, i'm not putting effort into any straining friendships that don't seem worthwile.
that's it.
i did alot of thinking recently and realized a lot about the people around me and about myself. and i realized that some people who i thought were my close friends were only my friends when it's convienient for them. so i did something today. i called everyone whom i had doubts in and saw what they were up to and to see how the approached the question. i even went out of my way to tell a few of them that i missed them. but in the end i got the same expected response. so, it made me realize alot.
i also realized that i care too much. yes, as morgen said- i sound like a sleazy politician. but i do care too much. i am always there for people. when they call me, and i'm in the middle of dinner and they sound like they need to be cheered up, i'm there for them. when they tell me something is up, i take time out for them. and i just dont see the same equal treatment in return from a majority of my "friends".
and then there are those people whom i haven't talked to in a while and they just come back into my life. and sometimes i like it and sometimes i hate it. last night, i hated it. morgen and jess know why. i dont feel like going into it.
in general, i'm not putting effort into any straining friendships that don't seem worthwile.
that's it.