So... yeah... umm....
Given the fact that I've been failing miserably to update every day, usually due to having very little to say that hasn't already been said, I'm going to just go with updating when I need to vent or have something to say. Which is today.
I went to bed at 11:30pm, fully intent on getting to bed early and being up early to go trim the lawn at my Grandfather's, have a nice tasty lunch, go up to check on the girls and then be to work for 5.
It's now 1:22am and I haven't been able to even get a little bit tired. My mind is just going in too many directions at once. It's also too late to take a sleeping pill, otherwise I won't be up until noon. I hate the fact that I can't sleep unless I am fully exhausted, which doesn't usually happen until 4AM no matter how long I've been up. Even then it still takes me an hour to fully relax and fall asleep, so half the time I'm only getting 4-5 hours when I've "scheduled" six. My alarm is still set for 8:45, so I'll be getting up then no matter what, but still, it's pissing me off. I hate laying in bed, having random events from the day play across the back of my eyelids like a movie while random songs play and I'm talking to myself about 3 or 4 different things with one voice just trying to make everything stop and calm down so I can sleep. I can't even meditate anymore because of this.
Anyway, as a heads up, I'm going to be puppysitting this weekend, until Monday afternoon, and I'm probably just going to shut off my computer and leave it off until I get back so it can have a rest. I won't have internet access while I'm up there, but my cell does get service, so I'll be around on that if anything important pops up.
I really want a cheeseburger, two cigarettes, and a tall glass of root beer right now...
I went to bed at 11:30pm, fully intent on getting to bed early and being up early to go trim the lawn at my Grandfather's, have a nice tasty lunch, go up to check on the girls and then be to work for 5.
It's now 1:22am and I haven't been able to even get a little bit tired. My mind is just going in too many directions at once. It's also too late to take a sleeping pill, otherwise I won't be up until noon. I hate the fact that I can't sleep unless I am fully exhausted, which doesn't usually happen until 4AM no matter how long I've been up. Even then it still takes me an hour to fully relax and fall asleep, so half the time I'm only getting 4-5 hours when I've "scheduled" six. My alarm is still set for 8:45, so I'll be getting up then no matter what, but still, it's pissing me off. I hate laying in bed, having random events from the day play across the back of my eyelids like a movie while random songs play and I'm talking to myself about 3 or 4 different things with one voice just trying to make everything stop and calm down so I can sleep. I can't even meditate anymore because of this.
Anyway, as a heads up, I'm going to be puppysitting this weekend, until Monday afternoon, and I'm probably just going to shut off my computer and leave it off until I get back so it can have a rest. I won't have internet access while I'm up there, but my cell does get service, so I'll be around on that if anything important pops up.
I really want a cheeseburger, two cigarettes, and a tall glass of root beer right now...