my first ever fanfic....
i decided to make this fanfic because there are so few het fics out there and that upsets me. im one of the few it seems who enjoy them, its just cuz i can't get into the romantic pairings of JE boys. so i figured shit i might aswell write my own. so here it is...let me know what you think. i plan on making a second part to this relatively soon, when i have the time to so be on the look out for it.
TITLE: Fate on the Shinkansen
CHARACTERS: Shibutani Subaru/OC
GENRE: Romance/Drama
RATINGS: NC-17 [near the end]
DISCLAIMER: The only thing i own in this story is the plot and the OC.
SUMMARY: She's on her way to her first show with her band in Osaka and she so happens to run into someone on the train on the way there and has an interesting evening, to say the least.
"I have to find something to calm me down, now." she thinks to herself while shuffling through her Ipod. She puts on A Perfect Circle and sighs, the lead singer's voice always has a way of calming her. She looks at her watch, there's about an hour left of her train ride to Osaka and less than 2 days till her first show ever.
"How the hell am I going to do this?" she mumbles. Thankfully she has the other members of the band to support her, but she is lead guitarist and singer so she knows that she has to make a good impression in order for this to go well. She takes out her notebook with the hopes of being able to write another song for the show. Fiddling with her pen shes groans "UGH I can't fucking do this!" and hits her head against the seat in front of her repeatedly.
"Oi, could you stop? I'm trying to sleep here!" the man in front of her yells and turns to her. He was wearing his hood up with sunglasses on in the train, which she found to be kind of odd.
"Sorry, I didn't think anyone was in front of me." She pulls back her red and black hair behind her ear, biting at her lip ring.
He scoffs, "You probably don't even realize who I am."
"Well how can I when you're the weirdo who's wearing sunglasses at night on the damn train?" she snaps at him.
"Fine," he takes down his hoodie and removes his sunglasses "got a better view now?"
"Of course I do," she says. "you're Shibutani Subaru of Kanjani8." she says nonchalantly. "It doesn't take being a rocket scientist to figure that out, considering you're in a popular jpop group that's everywhere right now."
"So the little punk girl knows eh?" he chuckles, observing her leather jacket with pins and studs galore. He gazed at her tattered black and red skirt paired with torn up fishnet stockings with black and red striped knee socks. He could tell she painted the black stars on her red Doc Martens. He couldn't stop himself from admiring her style, wishing he could be so bold.
She rolls her eyes at his comment. "Punk?" she laughs, "You obviously judge too much based off looks."
He looks puzzled, "What's thats supposed to mean? I was sure that the obnoxious amount of silver appendages on your clothing and your face were a dead giveaway."
"Just because I dress a certain way doesn't mean it defines who I am entirely. I am more than just some "punk". I don't label myself as anything, I am me. You're just being judgemental, just like so many others in this world. It's appalling." she says, glaring at him.
He smiles, "Fiesty are we? I meant no offense by it. Maybe if you don't want people to think you are a punk, you should stop dressing like one."
She growls "Damn right I am. So I should stop being myself just so I can fit into what society deems acceptable? No thanks. I would rather be an individual who is scrutinized for it than be another sheep like everyone else."
Subaru chuckles, "Don't be so defensive, I find nothing wrong with how you look. If that's what makes you happy, all the power to you little girl." He was intrigued by this girl, she stood by her convictions and he really liked that. He was curious as to why she was so brash, what about her past made her that way.
She smirks, "Who are you calling little? Chances are I'm bigger than you are! And last time I checked, I didn't ask for your approval."
He hisses at her. "Well you were the one thrashing your head against my seat. So maybe if you didn't bother me, I wouldn't be bothering you. Or maybe if you told me your name I wouldn't have to call you that."
She laughs "Oh, I hit a nerve did I little ossan? Sorry, just going off what I see just like you did to me. Payback is a bitch ain't it?"
He gets out of his seat to stand up next to hers, "Then let's see who is really the short one then."
She stands and she laughs as he sulks with defeat. "See, what did I tell you? I'm about 20 centimeters taller! From the looks of it I probably weigh more than you too!" She pokes at his slender stomach, which makes him gasp a little because it wasn't expected, but he didn't mind it much.
He mumbles, "You're boots are probably giving you an advantage...but I'll let you win for now."
She smiles, "Aww, I didn't mean to hurt your pride." She puts her hand out in front of him "The name's Mari."
He ends up switching his seat to the seat next to her guitar between them. Subaru was wide awake and really wanted to get to know Mari, not just because she was cute. It was because she held nothing back from him. Little did he know, she was hiding how she really felt. Mari was actually a fan of Kanjani8 and he was her favorite member because of the songs he wrote hit her heart like nothing else did. She liked that Subaru defied the rules in Johnny's when he got the tattoo on his hand, along with the ear plug and eyebrow ring he sported for a short time. She always was curious to know how he was in real life without the scrutiny of the expections set before him because he was a part of Johnny's Entertainment.
"So, you play guitar I see," he says "Mind if I take a look at it?"
She nods, "Sure go ahead, but if you hurt my Nancy I'll rip your head off." She didn't care if she sounded harsh, that guitar was the only remembrance she had of her older brother left 5 years before. He gave it to her for her 18th birthday and he died only a week later in a car accident.
He laughed, "Nancy? like Sid and Nancy right? Actually, I'm quite a fan of the Sex Pistols. Don't worry, I treat all guitars with great respect considering I play too." He took the guitar out of the case and was surprised by how well kept it was, he could tell that this guitar was more than just some instrument to her.
"Wow, A Les Paul Double Cutaway...naturally its black and red striped." he starts softly strumming random chords, while she is clutching the arm of her seat mostly out of fear because she's never let anyone else touch her guitar besides her brother. That guitar was her life and Subaru had it in his delicate hands, she was fearful yet comforted by that thought.
She nods, "Yeah, they are my favorite colors because mine is red and," she pauses, swallowing the sadness rising as it happens with everytime she mentions her brother. "...my brother's was black." she says softly, putting her head down so Subaru doesn't see the tears forming in her eyes. "That guitar was the last thing I received from him before he...was gone."
Subaru looks up at her and sees her distress. It was a heartbreaking sight, he saw what her weakness was underneath the tough girl exterior. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bring up something that is so painful for you to think about." He puts the guitar back in the case, moves it into his seat as he sits next to her. He puts his hand on hers, "I can tell he really loved you to give you such a beautiful gift. He would be happy that you've taken care of it so well."
Mari looks at his hand on hers then looks up at him, seeing the look of worry and sadness on his face. "I suppose so." she said, while the tears streamed down her face. He took out a handkerchief from his jacket and softly wiped the tears off her cheeks. She winced at first because she felt so embarrassed for letting out her emotions like that to someone she just met, especially because that person was Subaru. She takes the handkerchief from him and wipes her eyes "I'm sorry, you probably think I'm some crazy little punk."
He smiles, "Not at all, I think you are a strong, beautiful girl that knows who she is and isn't afraid to show it. I admire that. I wish I had courage like you do."
"Thanks, I don't really hear things like that much." she said with a slight smile. "Most people think I'm a freak with how I look and don't take the time to get to know who I am on the inside."
She glances at her watch, "It looks like we are going to be in Osaka soon..."
"Ah, it seems so. What's bringing you to Osaka may I ask?" he says, hoping that maybe he will be able to spend more time with her.
"Tomorrow night I'm going to be performing with my band, I was trying to write another song for it, hence the headbanging against the seat. I'm kind of scared because its our first show." she said.
"Really?" he said, "If you want, I'm free the rest of tonight and tomorrow...I could help you write a song tonight and go to the show with you, for support. You seem like you need it and I am more than willing to give that to you..." he says in anticipation, hoping that she will take him up on the offer because he really wants to be there for her.
Mari can see in his expression that he is seeking approval from her, she can't help but think of how precious it was because it was a face no one has really made to her before. It made her feel like she was actually wanted in the world. "Sure, I mean, if you really don't have anything going on and you want to..." she looks down, kicking herself in her mind for sounding like such an idiot. She didn't want to sound needy, despite the fact that she does need someone, that she needs him.
He smiles and lifts her chin, "It would be an honor for you to allow me the privilege."
"You definately look like you need a drink, wanna go somewhere?" he says to her as they get off the train, walking onto the streets of Osaka. Mari looks to him and nods, "Yeah, that would really help." She shuffled as they walked, looking at the ground. The hurt inside of her was rearing it's ugly head and Subaru was the one to witness her breakdown. They reach a small bar not far from the station, they sit in a booth near the back so they arent noticed. He orders a beer, she orders a whiskey on ice. "Like it strong huh?" he says as he sees her down her drink like water.
"Anything to numb the pain." She looks to him, her hair covering her face. She didn't want him to see her like this, to see that she is so weak.
Seeing her like this was breaking his heart. He couldn't sit by and let her do this to herself, she was better than this and he knew it despite not knowing her long.
"But when you sober up it will just come back with vengeance, so you shouldn't drown your sorrows into the bottom of a bottle. Talk to me. I will listen to whatever you need to say." He takes the glass out of her hand and replaces it with his hands. "Please, it kills me to see you like this..."
Mari looks at his hands, then looks up at him. The look on his face brought her to tears. She saw the pain in his dark eyes, the furrow in his brow from the grave look of concern on his face.
"I'm sorry...it's just..." she sighs, "I have alot of pain buried inside me, I've been through many bad things...I never was able to let it out, but in my music. It's the only time I am able to say what I feel. The only time people listen...when I don't feel like I'm worthless." Tears were streaming down her face as she poured her heart out to him. This was the first time in years that she was able to say what she felt without it having to be through a song.
"Looking at you, is like staring back at myself." Subaru moves next to her and embraces her. "When I'm singing, it feels like it's the only time people really hear me out." He cups her face into his hands and stares into her eyes "Don't ever think that you are alone in that feeling. I understand it because I feel it too." The tears were welling up in his eyes, but he managed to hold them back for her sake, and his.
Mari couldn't believe that this was happening. Never did she think that anyone understood where she was comming from, but he did. The pain in his eyes, the sincerity in his voice showed her that she wasn't alone and his words weren't just lip service like it was whenever she tried to talk to anyone else. It never really got through to her till this moment, seeing someone she thought was so strong have their moment of weakness.
"Thank you...for being here with me. You didn't have to be, but you chose to anyways. Most people would run away from me seeing me like this. It's reassuring to know that there is someone in this world who will actually listen." she said as she wiped the tears from her eyes with the handkerchief he gave her.
Subaru softly smiles at her, "I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. I saw that you needed help and I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I became another person who pushed you aside. Everyone needs someone to listen to them no matter what it is, and I really wanted to be that someone for you. I hope that I am able to help you because you don't deserve to feel such pain."
The thought of him always being there for her made her smile, to be able to be in his arms made her feel safe, wanted. "You have definitely helped me. Seeing your vulnerable side as you spoke to me made me truely realize that I'm not alone. I really appreciate you doing that for me because I know how hard it is to show that side of yourself. It really means alot to me, I can't say thank you enough."
"Don't worry about it, you don't have to thank me. Just whenever you feel like that and need to talk, don't hesitate to let me know, okay? I want to be there for you, to help all I can to get you the happiness you deserve in life." he says as he puts the fee for their drinks on the table. "Now, how about we go write your song for tomorrow? We can go to my place, I have some instruments and recording stuff there."
Mari nods and he leads the way out of the bar. They start walking to the subway to make their way to Subaru's, he takes her hand and interlaces his fingers with hers. This was something they both been searching for, acceptance of who they truely are and they found it in eachother.
Subaru unlocks the door and they walk into the small loft apartment he had in the heart of Osaka. It was simple, but had a beauty to it that was nothing like anything else she's seen. There was artwork and photographs all over the walls, she walked and gazed at them as he went into the kitchen to grab them some coffee. "Did you do all of these? They are really amazing." she asked.
"No, my friend Ohno-kun made the paintings for me. He's the amazing artist, I am not all that great at drawing. I work better with words. I took some of the photos, but most of them were done by Shige-kun." he chuckles as he brings her a cup.
Mari smiles, "That's alright though, the way you write makes up for it. To be honest, I always connected with the songs you write. They brought out emotion in me I never thought I had. I was kind of jealous, wishing I could write like you do."
"Well hopefully I'll be able to help you out a bit. Do you have alot written in that notebook you had on the train?" he asked as he guided her over to the little recording area he had set up. There was a small set of drums, three electric guitars, two acoustic, and a bass with a few small amps and microphones.
She goes into her bag and takes out the notebook then hands it to him, "I write most of my songs in it. Please let me know what you think, what I can improve on. I am still a novice when it comes to writing, I don't think I'm that good at it."
"Nonsense," he says as he reads through the lyrics, holding himself back from tearing up again. The emotion in her words were so raw, unscensored. She didn't hold back from saying exactly what she thought and he adored that. "I think you are an amazing writer, in fact I am now jealous of you. You say things that no one dares to, but it's what everyone thinks of themselves at some point. I admire your bravery, it takes alot to write from the heart like you do."
She blushes, almost turning beet red from his kind words. No one ever said things like that about her writing, or about her at all. She was always the wallflower that not many took notice to because they considered her strange. "Thanks...its just what I feel really, because I don't have the ability to say it to others like most do. Most of the time I don't talk to anyone...I don't have any close friends or family. Haven't really had a boyfriend either..." she said, looking down into her cup trying to hold back her tears because she had her fill of crying earlier.
Subaru walks over to her, taking the cup out of her hands and putting it on the small table near them. Embracing her again, he strokes her hair as she lays her head on his shoulder. She nuzzled into his neck, inhaling his scent. It was musky, but was pleasant to her. The way she felt when she was close to him was like nothing she ever experienced with anyone.
"I hope you'll be able to confide in me. I always want to be here for you." Lifting her head to look into his eyes, he softly kisses her lips. He wanted to do much more than that, but didn't want to overwhelm her because she had enough to deal with as it was.
She cluched onto his shoulders, her knees almost giving out from the shock of his action. The feeling of his soft lips on hers was breathtaking, she wanted this from the moment he touched her hand on the train.
"I'm sorry...I just couldn't help myself." he looks away from her, hoping that he didn't go too far. The last thing he wanted was to scare her to where she would leave him.
"Don't be, I've been holding myself back from doing that very thing because I didn't think you would want me...because I'm a wreck. Someone like me doesn't deserve affection." she said as she put her head down.
He lifts her chin and looks into her eyes, "Everyone has their issues, nobody's perfect. I wouldn't ever hold that against you. You deserve much more thank you think you do. I want you Mari...I need you." They slowly move closer to eachother, she melts into his embrace as they kiss again. Neither of them could hold back the want they had for one another. The kiss grew more passionate as she slowly opened her mouth more so their tongues could intertwine with eachother. The feeling of them kissing like this was like a blessing to her, something she always wished for because it was more than just going through the motions for physical gratification, there was feeling behind it like nothing she felt before with anyone.
Subaru slowly walked to guide them over to his bed in the corner of the loft, gently putting his hands underneath her shirt caressing her back and her sides as they continued kissing. Mari gasped when she felt him, then he stopped when they reached the edge of the bed and looked at her, "If you don't want to keep going it's okay, I'll understand if you aren't ready to..." he paused as she looked at him with wide eyes, hoping that he didn't ruin the chance of being in her life by being hasty.
"Please don't stop. Subaru, I want you." she said before she kissed him, pulling his waist into her body. "I want to feel you close to me. I'm ready."
He slowly set her onto the bed as he got on top of her, softly kissing her neck while lifting up her shirt. Subaru caressed her stomach, moving his way up to her breasts. His fingers traced along the top of her breasts over her bra. She arched into him, light moans escaped her while she lightly scratched down his back. The feeling of her nails along his back gave him chills and excited him, to where the hardness in his black jeans was growing. The ability to control himself was slowly slipping. He removed her shirt and started nibbling at her neck. Mari grabbed onto his short black hair, tugging at it showing that she wanted him to move lower. He took note of her action and slowly moved down her neck to her chest while moving his hand behind her back to unclasp her black lace bra. Subaru removed her bra and gazed at the beauty before him. Her pale skin had a tint of pink from the slight embarrassment she felt as he looked at her, fearing he wouldn't like what he saw.
"You are so gorgeous." He said breathlessly in awe. Mari bit her lip while smiling a little, not knowing what to say. She arched her back towards him as a way to say she wanted him to continue where he left off. "Do you want me to keep going?" he asked with a deep voice as he examined her body with his eyes. Mari nodded, "Yes, please..." She tugged onto his hips to move him back close to her. Subaru complied as he kissed down her neck, making his way to her taut pink nipple. He softly kissed around them while looking up at her, Mari looking down at him with her eyes half open due to the overwhelming pleasure she felt that was intoxicating to her. He softly smiled as he swept his tongue across her, feeling her shiver at the contact.
"You like feeling me close like this?" he said as he flicked his tongue against her nipple again, slowly taking it into his mouth and sucking upon her breast. Mari leaned into him drawing his mouth around her further, "Yes...Subaru..." she moaned as she tightened her grip of his hair. She felt like her body was on fire from the desire he evoked from her.
Subaru's blood was boiling with passion, and hearing her moan his name like that sent him over the edge. He released his mouth from her breast and slowly kissed down her stomach till he reached her pierced belly button. "I have one of those too." he chuckled as he pulled up his shirt to show her his piercing. Mari giggled, "I know, I saw a picture of you in a magazine shirtless and saw it. I think it's cute that you have it." She sits up, pulls onto his shirt and removes it. The sight of his slender stomach and broad shoulders was nothing like it was in magazines, it was much better in person.
"Anxious are we?" he taunts as he kisses her stomach just above her skirt. Subaru looks up at her again, this time her looking back with a firey gaze while breathing heavily. He grins, "I take that as a 'Yes'. Should I go on?"
"Do you even have to ask? I wouldn't let it go this far if I didn't want to go all the way. It would be a tease to you, and to me. More than it is already." she said, lightly tugging at her skirt and stockings, hinting for him to take them off.
"So you think I'm teasing you eh? Honey, I haven't even gotten started." he says with a sinister grin, slowly pulling off her skirt and stockings but making sure her black lace boy shorts stayed on. He noticed something on the right side of her stomach near her hip, a small fuse with sparks near her hip bone. His hand moves her underwear down a little just to get a better look and sees a cherry.
"I'm your ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-cherry bomb." she sings with a smile and then laughs. "Any idea what the reference is?"
"The Runaways of course, one of the biggest girl rock bands ever." Subaru says, "You kind of remind me of Joan Jett...but hotter." he grins as his grazes her hip bone where the tattoo is with the tip of his tongue. She moans while laughing, "Aren't you a charmer. I don't think I can be compared with someone like her." Subaru moves in between her legs, pressing his hardness against her core while moving to her ear, he whispers, "You're right, because she can't compare to how amazing you are."
She gasps when he pushes against her, locking him in place with her thighs. Subaru chuckled as he bit and kissed at her neck, slowly moving his hips in a circular motion against her. "As much as I enjoy teasing you, I can't hold back anymore." he says, his hot breath on her shoulder. She could feel him trembling above her.
"Then don't. Take me Subaru, now." Mari says with hunger in her voice. She pulls his belt undone, working on the button of his jeans next. Pulling down the zipper, she reaches inside and grabs him hard. He gasps and almost loses balance, the feel of her soft hand rubbing against one of the most sensitive areas of his body made him dizzy with pleasure rushing to his skull.
"Who's teasing who now, huh babe?" she says with an evil smile.
"You're a little devil...I like it." he said while pulling his pants down, exposing himself to her completely. Her eyes widened, despite his stature, he made up for it otherwise below the waist. She smiled as she slowly took off her panties to reveal herself to him as he pulled his jeans off his thin legs. This time it was his eyes that widened at the sight before him, it was breathtaking how beautiful she was. He kneeled before her, putting his hands on her knees slowly opening her legs wide, then lowered his body onto hers. Pressing the shaft of his arousal against her, he took hold of her wrists and placed them above her head. He kissed her passionately on the lips as he softly scratched down her arms, past her breasts, one hand staying upon one them. The other hand going further down her stomach, onto the tender flesh of her center. He softly caressed the outside before putting one of his fingers deep into her. Mari gasped as his thumb rubbed against her oversensitive button above the entrance of her core, she jerked her head to the side as she moaned in ecstasy. "Subaru...." she whimpered. That sound only served to drive him more wild as he leaned over to his nightstand to retrieve a condom from the drawer. He rolled it on, then softly protruded the tip of his member into her entrance. "Once I'm in, I won't be able to stop. Are you sure about this?" he asked in anticipation for her answer.
Mari pushes herself against him, making him sink into her little by little. That was her response, yet he remained completely still, waiting till she said what he needed to hear. She looked up at him, her eyes pleading like a lost puppy as she whined, "Please Subaru....fuck me."
She read his mind, he thought as he slowly invaded her, pushing deep into her body. Mari groaned in the sheer bliss she felt with him inside of her, every thrust he made sending jolts of pleasure through her entire body.
"Fuck...you're so tight." he groaned, quickening the pace of his hips. She arched against him, pressing her breasts against his chest. Putting her hands onto his back, she scratched from his shoulders downward. It sent chills up his spine feeling her nails dig into him. She panted, "Subaru....faster. I'm almost there." as she bit into his shoulder. The seductive moan she released made him lose all inhibitions as he violently thrusted into her, barely able to control his own climax.
"You better soon, I can't go on much longer." he said as he thrusts himself as deep as he could. Mari hips grinded wildly against him, "Yes! Right there...Please don't stop Subaru..." she pleaded as he hit a pleasure point inside of her that was going to drive her insane.
"Mari, I'm about to lose it." Subaru says as the rhythm of his hips into her grew increasingly fevered. The feel of her tightening against his member was pushing him to the limit. She moaned loudly, "I'm comming Subaru, come with me baby, please." as she latched onto him, bucking underneath him from the orgasm attacking her form. "I'm, I-" he groans as he grabbed her hips, stilling her for his satisfaction as he made the final thrusts into her. He gradually slowed his pace, panting from the intense rush that overcame him and put his body against hers. Mari released the death grip she had on his shoulders, moving her hands through his hair as she smiled. "You still have to help me write that song you know."
Subaru got up merely to dispose of the condom in the wastebasket under the nightstand, then threw himself onto the bed next to her, "Can it wait till the morning? Jeeze, I just gave you the best sex of my life, punk." he smirks as he pulls her closer to him. Mari lays her head into the crook of his arm, her hand upon his chest, wrapping her leg around him as she chuckles, "Correction, I'm your ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-cherry bomb."
He puts his hand through her choppy black and red hair then kisses her forehead, "That you are dear, that you are."