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well today i sadly say good-bye to my 21 year... yes i am excited for the festivities, because at least everyone else is legal by this time and i'm not goin on a freakin date. but i guess i am feeling uh...not really unhappy...k maybe unhappy and a bit nervous and sad. all together.
so where was i exactly a year ago. listening to y sing me a song over the phone while i melted... and later going to watch a movie at j's, the last time we would be 'just friends.' and where did i go from there. on a roller-coaster of love and crazy and secret and exciting relationships, the most un-motivating quarter at school ever, kick-ass tsunami concert, amazing tp residency & tour, finally finally being 'single&21' and livin it up over the summer, learning lessons, and back to school.
so...i did a lot of crazy things and had a lot of fun and had no regrets and all that good stuff. totally milked the excuse of being 21, and just going through that phase. why does adding one year on to that feel sooo much older? not like i feel like i need to settle down or anything, but for some reason it feels like its pushing me in that direction. so then i'm back to this j drama. he's coming to seattle in a few weeks just to visit, then back for good at the end of march. so many things to think about, and i'm so nervous i can't even be excited.
so i just turned 22 and i'm not even a senior yet. i'll be graduating at 23, which is even closer to 25, which is even closer to 30! slow down, i know... but it's hard for me not to think like that when i've got this burden of a time limit to have my bebes... i feel like 21 is officially legal, but 22 is when u feel like an adult. no excuses, it's time to grow up. no more exciting milestones.
sigh...
so where was i exactly a year ago. listening to y sing me a song over the phone while i melted... and later going to watch a movie at j's, the last time we would be 'just friends.' and where did i go from there. on a roller-coaster of love and crazy and secret and exciting relationships, the most un-motivating quarter at school ever, kick-ass tsunami concert, amazing tp residency & tour, finally finally being 'single&21' and livin it up over the summer, learning lessons, and back to school.
so...i did a lot of crazy things and had a lot of fun and had no regrets and all that good stuff. totally milked the excuse of being 21, and just going through that phase. why does adding one year on to that feel sooo much older? not like i feel like i need to settle down or anything, but for some reason it feels like its pushing me in that direction. so then i'm back to this j drama. he's coming to seattle in a few weeks just to visit, then back for good at the end of march. so many things to think about, and i'm so nervous i can't even be excited.
so i just turned 22 and i'm not even a senior yet. i'll be graduating at 23, which is even closer to 25, which is even closer to 30! slow down, i know... but it's hard for me not to think like that when i've got this burden of a time limit to have my bebes... i feel like 21 is officially legal, but 22 is when u feel like an adult. no excuses, it's time to grow up. no more exciting milestones.
sigh...