hmm
well holy shit. the surprise of all surprises, j wrote me an email. i hate that it gets me so excited. but it really was super exciting this time cuz i've been contemplating writing him the past few days, and he beat me to it. i was wondering if i should wait for him or just suck it up and write him first like i always do. anywayz, it was nice to hear from him. nothing all that detailed or lengthy, but a nice little update. glad to hear he's still playing taiko.
as if i wasn't thinking about him enuf already...
especially after the y stuff all went down. now here we go again with more and more thoughts to fuck with my head. and his b-day's coming up so i have some decisions to make. card, e-card, phone card. each have their pros & cons. what to do, what to do. y's b-day is coming up as well. kinda weird, they're exactly a year and a day apart.
so we skipped good night calls last night. for whatever reason. i didn't call, neither did he. i feel like i should call tonight just to avoid obvious awkwardness. let it drift off a little slower if that's what's gonna happen. i don't know how he felt about the whole visit. had a de-brief with ad last night, made me think of some more things in a different light. i really don't know what to do about my planned visit for december. i really really want to go, and i've been hyping her up about it for months. but i'm not so excited about seeing him anymore, especially cuz i just saw him and b. and i spent sooo much money when he was here. sigh...
i should at least try and sleep i suppose. even though i took a nap like a few hours ago.
as if i wasn't thinking about him enuf already...
especially after the y stuff all went down. now here we go again with more and more thoughts to fuck with my head. and his b-day's coming up so i have some decisions to make. card, e-card, phone card. each have their pros & cons. what to do, what to do. y's b-day is coming up as well. kinda weird, they're exactly a year and a day apart.
so we skipped good night calls last night. for whatever reason. i didn't call, neither did he. i feel like i should call tonight just to avoid obvious awkwardness. let it drift off a little slower if that's what's gonna happen. i don't know how he felt about the whole visit. had a de-brief with ad last night, made me think of some more things in a different light. i really don't know what to do about my planned visit for december. i really really want to go, and i've been hyping her up about it for months. but i'm not so excited about seeing him anymore, especially cuz i just saw him and b. and i spent sooo much money when he was here. sigh...
i should at least try and sleep i suppose. even though i took a nap like a few hours ago.