Some People PFFFFFFFFT.
I can't believe the cheek of some people. I mean really, how obvious can you get? Just got another evidenece that me and my mum were used and it's just really upset me. I'm not even sure if she's fully aware of what she's doing and that it's selfish. They fact she only really speaks to me of her own occoured is when she wants something, never a simple 'hi', unless I leave her one. I never even got a goodbye when she left and that fucking hurts. And now she's hinting she wants to come with me after I won a compitition, fuck that I'd rather go on my own if it comes to it. And I was willing to put it behind me and move on, even if my mum isn't, but that was just a slap.
As for that I'm slightly fed up with my mum. I don't hate her and most of the time she does have a point but she's making me feel small. It's not a big thing but it's just things like when I'm happy or passionate about something like Harry Potter or Lil, all I get is a rolling of the eyes, like I'm stupid for liking it so much, that what I love is a waste of time, even my dancing at times, she makes me feel small for concentrating on that. I'm not sure if she realises what she's doing and if I told her she'd just get angry and say I'm 'being stupid' but it's just the way she acts with me that makes me feel that what I do enjoy is childish and pointless. Then things which are linked to me 'problem' and I can't fully help she has a go at me which breaks me. Like cos I exercise so much, I can't always do things with people cos I don't know how to cope without it and go out with people instead and she blames me for that, which ok is my fault but I'm scared without it. She also blames me for not seeing her much because she works in the day time and I dance and work at night, even though that's both our faults, but no, it's my fault and I get the stick for it. Yesturday she even said to me 'you'd go out with your dad!' which stung and I think it had been boiling up in her cos I do go out with my dad but only when we both can (mum usually can't be arsed cos she's too tired when I ask). She also says things like 'when you were in Dundee' as if she doesn't want me here, which I think is true. Wish I could afford to move out cos it's obvious I'm not welcome.
As for that I'm slightly fed up with my mum. I don't hate her and most of the time she does have a point but she's making me feel small. It's not a big thing but it's just things like when I'm happy or passionate about something like Harry Potter or Lil, all I get is a rolling of the eyes, like I'm stupid for liking it so much, that what I love is a waste of time, even my dancing at times, she makes me feel small for concentrating on that. I'm not sure if she realises what she's doing and if I told her she'd just get angry and say I'm 'being stupid' but it's just the way she acts with me that makes me feel that what I do enjoy is childish and pointless. Then things which are linked to me 'problem' and I can't fully help she has a go at me which breaks me. Like cos I exercise so much, I can't always do things with people cos I don't know how to cope without it and go out with people instead and she blames me for that, which ok is my fault but I'm scared without it. She also blames me for not seeing her much because she works in the day time and I dance and work at night, even though that's both our faults, but no, it's my fault and I get the stick for it. Yesturday she even said to me 'you'd go out with your dad!' which stung and I think it had been boiling up in her cos I do go out with my dad but only when we both can (mum usually can't be arsed cos she's too tired when I ask). She also says things like 'when you were in Dundee' as if she doesn't want me here, which I think is true. Wish I could afford to move out cos it's obvious I'm not welcome.