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Almost half a year, and no post. But what better day to finally do it than 7/7/07? I'm sort of done with livejournal and thinking about deleting it, although I do like reading other people's conviently on my friends list, so maybe not.
I am a college graduate. I completed my div III and I will not lie I thoroughly enjoyed working on it (with the exception of a few tears over logistics in surveying people) and am really proud of the final result. It touched on alot of relevant things that I care quite a bit about, and it was pretty successful. I guess now that its done I feel like my baby is all grown up. I kind of miss working on it. Crazy, no? It clarified whats important to me academically, professionally and idealistically and gave me a pretty good idea of what I would love to be doing with my life. I am a student. I like to study, I like to read, I like to write, I like to interview and interact with people, I like to research and learn more. I can not wait to go back to grad school. I know that's ridiculous, and I don't hear to many people with me on this one, but it is true. I almost wish I applied directly out of undergrad. Almost. At the same time, I am way too idealistic. Child development still fascinates me, and I don't want to stop with that. But issues of access, of disparities in treatment, remain my jam, and if in anyway possible, I can continue working on such matters, I will be happy.
Problem? These goals do not necessarily translate into an easy to obtain, high paying, entry level position. And thats ok, it really is. Yes, every day I feel embarassed I do not have a job and am living room and board free at my dads. People do not need to tease me and say things to me to make me realize that I am very privileged to be able to do this. And every day I wonder, when do I settle and take a job that isn't exactly what I want to be doing but will give me something to do and a paycheck. I do think about these things. But I have only been out of school two months and am willing to put in more fight to get what I want. I am applying to research positions furiously, writing a cover letter a day. Job searching is really frustrating. I just want to walk into an office and say, "Hey look. You will not find anyone more committed to this type of work than myself. You will not find anyone more passionate about it. You will not find anyone more willing to work extra hours, to give it a 100 percent effort. And you can ask the professors and bosses I've worked with how qualified I am." Unfortunatly, I suck and am unable so far to obtain many interviews or reference checks. I don't know if this is because I am 07 grad no fulltime experience, if it's because I dont appear good enough (because I know I am) if its because I completely lack "connections", or what but it is frustrating. I understand how self absorbed this sounds and I don't expect to be running the company, I am willing to do whatever it takes to get my foot in the door and really get involved with what I want to be doing, even in tiny ways. The job search is a frustrating thing with a damned if you do and damned if you don't sense. Do you write an objective do you not? Do you follow up call and stand out or do you follow up call and annoy the hiring manager so they throw your resume away? The whole thing is full of nuances, it drives me insane. But, yeah, thats where I am in my postgrad life. People ask me, and it takes too long to spill it all out, but that just about sums it up. Its annoying to have such a clear picture of what I want, but trouble getting there. Its early though and it will happen. Hopefully.
Socially, I am pretty awesome. I do unemployment in style. I'm at the beach or pool with Emily alot. My nights are crazy-I hardly ever even sleep at my house. I am always on Cassi's ton, or the floor somewhere, or visiting a far away friend. Its great to spend so much time with Cassi, Jackie, and crew, and Mandy, Lanna, and crew, etc. It will settle down, and that will be appreciated, but for right now I am enjoying it. When I am not living out of my backpack, I am reading good books, watching good movies and watching bad TV, and I love it. I do miss Hampshire though and especially those so uniquely Hampshire things-nobody throws a dance party like Hampshire, there is nothing on earth like spring jam or keg hunt, and I miss Prescott, specially the quad, and overlooking it on the fire escape, and watching good people go by. I miss my roomies terribly and the same four songs which drove me crazy, and waking up to pancakes and law and order at 1pm.
I am trying to be healthier, which is tough when I am out so much. I am limiting my drinking a bit, excercising a few times a week and trying to eat a bit better. I think its something I can focus positive energy on now and will be helpful to have in routine when I don't have this time.
I am seeing Harry Potter in 3d at the midnight showing, day it comes out. Jealous? Jimmy Buffett in September, jealous?
ok, maybe in another six months you will hear from me again.
I am a college graduate. I completed my div III and I will not lie I thoroughly enjoyed working on it (with the exception of a few tears over logistics in surveying people) and am really proud of the final result. It touched on alot of relevant things that I care quite a bit about, and it was pretty successful. I guess now that its done I feel like my baby is all grown up. I kind of miss working on it. Crazy, no? It clarified whats important to me academically, professionally and idealistically and gave me a pretty good idea of what I would love to be doing with my life. I am a student. I like to study, I like to read, I like to write, I like to interview and interact with people, I like to research and learn more. I can not wait to go back to grad school. I know that's ridiculous, and I don't hear to many people with me on this one, but it is true. I almost wish I applied directly out of undergrad. Almost. At the same time, I am way too idealistic. Child development still fascinates me, and I don't want to stop with that. But issues of access, of disparities in treatment, remain my jam, and if in anyway possible, I can continue working on such matters, I will be happy.
Problem? These goals do not necessarily translate into an easy to obtain, high paying, entry level position. And thats ok, it really is. Yes, every day I feel embarassed I do not have a job and am living room and board free at my dads. People do not need to tease me and say things to me to make me realize that I am very privileged to be able to do this. And every day I wonder, when do I settle and take a job that isn't exactly what I want to be doing but will give me something to do and a paycheck. I do think about these things. But I have only been out of school two months and am willing to put in more fight to get what I want. I am applying to research positions furiously, writing a cover letter a day. Job searching is really frustrating. I just want to walk into an office and say, "Hey look. You will not find anyone more committed to this type of work than myself. You will not find anyone more passionate about it. You will not find anyone more willing to work extra hours, to give it a 100 percent effort. And you can ask the professors and bosses I've worked with how qualified I am." Unfortunatly, I suck and am unable so far to obtain many interviews or reference checks. I don't know if this is because I am 07 grad no fulltime experience, if it's because I dont appear good enough (because I know I am) if its because I completely lack "connections", or what but it is frustrating. I understand how self absorbed this sounds and I don't expect to be running the company, I am willing to do whatever it takes to get my foot in the door and really get involved with what I want to be doing, even in tiny ways. The job search is a frustrating thing with a damned if you do and damned if you don't sense. Do you write an objective do you not? Do you follow up call and stand out or do you follow up call and annoy the hiring manager so they throw your resume away? The whole thing is full of nuances, it drives me insane. But, yeah, thats where I am in my postgrad life. People ask me, and it takes too long to spill it all out, but that just about sums it up. Its annoying to have such a clear picture of what I want, but trouble getting there. Its early though and it will happen. Hopefully.
Socially, I am pretty awesome. I do unemployment in style. I'm at the beach or pool with Emily alot. My nights are crazy-I hardly ever even sleep at my house. I am always on Cassi's ton, or the floor somewhere, or visiting a far away friend. Its great to spend so much time with Cassi, Jackie, and crew, and Mandy, Lanna, and crew, etc. It will settle down, and that will be appreciated, but for right now I am enjoying it. When I am not living out of my backpack, I am reading good books, watching good movies and watching bad TV, and I love it. I do miss Hampshire though and especially those so uniquely Hampshire things-nobody throws a dance party like Hampshire, there is nothing on earth like spring jam or keg hunt, and I miss Prescott, specially the quad, and overlooking it on the fire escape, and watching good people go by. I miss my roomies terribly and the same four songs which drove me crazy, and waking up to pancakes and law and order at 1pm.
I am trying to be healthier, which is tough when I am out so much. I am limiting my drinking a bit, excercising a few times a week and trying to eat a bit better. I think its something I can focus positive energy on now and will be helpful to have in routine when I don't have this time.
I am seeing Harry Potter in 3d at the midnight showing, day it comes out. Jealous? Jimmy Buffett in September, jealous?
ok, maybe in another six months you will hear from me again.