why are things so difficult?
Well, I still haven't talked to him again. I really don't understand whats going on. I mean, everything went great. He freaking told me that he had a great time and that he would LOVE to see me again. Then we both said we woudl call each other and I havne't heard from him. I think I was being stubborn all week waiting for him to call cuase he's the guy but I gave in tonight and called him. I left a message so now its onto the waiting game again. If he doens't call me back then screw him. But I really hope he does still. There was no indication on Sunday that we wouldn't see each other again. I seriously don't understand men.
And I'm getting to the point in my life where I really want to settle down and start a family. I'm 25 years old, soon to be graduating from college and I feel like I still dont' know what to do with my life. Like yeah, I want to work with kids, either special needs or in a hospital environment but so what? What I really want is just to hav kids of my own and be a stay at home mom but I'm not even close to having that happen. Yes I want my career too but number one for me is having my own family. And its hard for me as well since a bunch of my younger friends are already married and have babies and I want that so badly for myself. I feel like everytime I have some sort of hope with a guy and I feel like the relationship is going somewhere, it doesn't work and I'm back to sqaure one. Sigh....anyway, life sucks. I do truly belive that things happen for reasons though and if something is meant to happen it will. I just have to keep living by that philosophy or I might go insane.
Done now.
And I'm getting to the point in my life where I really want to settle down and start a family. I'm 25 years old, soon to be graduating from college and I feel like I still dont' know what to do with my life. Like yeah, I want to work with kids, either special needs or in a hospital environment but so what? What I really want is just to hav kids of my own and be a stay at home mom but I'm not even close to having that happen. Yes I want my career too but number one for me is having my own family. And its hard for me as well since a bunch of my younger friends are already married and have babies and I want that so badly for myself. I feel like everytime I have some sort of hope with a guy and I feel like the relationship is going somewhere, it doesn't work and I'm back to sqaure one. Sigh....anyway, life sucks. I do truly belive that things happen for reasons though and if something is meant to happen it will. I just have to keep living by that philosophy or I might go insane.
Done now.