just stuff
Well its been a while since I've updated. There's honestly not that much new in myu life but there are a few things i need to say.
First of all i need to apologize to a few people. I know that I haven't been around much at all and I'm sorry for that. Its not that I'm not thinking about you and that I don't want to be around a lot. Its just that myu life isso focused on Todd right now and he is where its at for me. I love him and all i want to do is spend a ton of time with him. When I have a boyfriend, i always try super hard to always have time for my friends. And I have made time for my friends here...i still see them all the time. Its you guys that I feel i have been neglecting. I haven't chatted to any of you on msn or AIM forever and when i do its a five minute conversation because I'm busy. I don't reply to things anymore and even when i read them, i sometimes just don't have anything to say or no time to reply. I am SO sorry...i love you all and I never want to lose contact with you. Its kind of funny cause I was talking to one of you a few weeks ago and the person asked me if I thought that any of us would ever lose touch. I definitely think its possible. We are all getting older and we will be getting married and having kids and such and there just won't be as much time for anything. Its sad cause I can feel that happening with myself already. I want to be with Todd and I am almost certain he is the one for me. He is all my life is about these days. I want you all to know though, that I consider you all more than just people I chat with on the internet. I consider you all friends and you have all been there for me many times. I thank you all for that. I am going to try so super hard to be here more and to reply to more things so no one thinks I'm ignoring them. I never want to lose touch with any of you. Just because I am MIA sometimes, doesn't mean I'm not thinking about you. And I will always come back, no matter what. I would never just stop talking to you all. I love you all:)
Alright, about Todd. Its so weird. He is everything I've always wanted and everything I never wanted at the same time. I know that makes no sense but it does to me. I will try to explain this. There are a lot of things about him that I never thought I wanted in a boyfriend. For one, he smokes. Mind you he is trying to quit (aren't they all) but i still hate it. He knows i hate it though and rarely smokes around me unless we are out. Another thing, he still likes to go out and drink and stuff with his friends. I'm not saying I don't like to do that as well but he still does it more than I do and it kind of bothers me. I don't even know why it does but it does. I just feel like I have mostly gotten through that stage in my life and i want to move on and stuff. But whatever, he also knows it bugs me and i know he would rather be with me than be out drinking as well so thats nice. And the thing about his daughter. I love his daughter, she is a great girl and we get along awesome. I just never thought I would end up with someone who already has a child. I kind of always wanted to have my husbands first child. But despite all those things, he is everything I always wanted. He treats me so well and makes me so happy. And when it comes down to it, thats all that matters.
In other news, I started working at the school board last week. I really like it. I got called in to two different schools and it was a lot of fun. I worked with a little boy with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome and then with a group of children with learning disabilities. I know i will learn lots and get really good expereince so I'm super excited about it. Its only two days a week but thats fine cause i don't mind my other job anymore.
Alright, this novel is long enough. Love you all...bye:)
First of all i need to apologize to a few people. I know that I haven't been around much at all and I'm sorry for that. Its not that I'm not thinking about you and that I don't want to be around a lot. Its just that myu life isso focused on Todd right now and he is where its at for me. I love him and all i want to do is spend a ton of time with him. When I have a boyfriend, i always try super hard to always have time for my friends. And I have made time for my friends here...i still see them all the time. Its you guys that I feel i have been neglecting. I haven't chatted to any of you on msn or AIM forever and when i do its a five minute conversation because I'm busy. I don't reply to things anymore and even when i read them, i sometimes just don't have anything to say or no time to reply. I am SO sorry...i love you all and I never want to lose contact with you. Its kind of funny cause I was talking to one of you a few weeks ago and the person asked me if I thought that any of us would ever lose touch. I definitely think its possible. We are all getting older and we will be getting married and having kids and such and there just won't be as much time for anything. Its sad cause I can feel that happening with myself already. I want to be with Todd and I am almost certain he is the one for me. He is all my life is about these days. I want you all to know though, that I consider you all more than just people I chat with on the internet. I consider you all friends and you have all been there for me many times. I thank you all for that. I am going to try so super hard to be here more and to reply to more things so no one thinks I'm ignoring them. I never want to lose touch with any of you. Just because I am MIA sometimes, doesn't mean I'm not thinking about you. And I will always come back, no matter what. I would never just stop talking to you all. I love you all:)
Alright, about Todd. Its so weird. He is everything I've always wanted and everything I never wanted at the same time. I know that makes no sense but it does to me. I will try to explain this. There are a lot of things about him that I never thought I wanted in a boyfriend. For one, he smokes. Mind you he is trying to quit (aren't they all) but i still hate it. He knows i hate it though and rarely smokes around me unless we are out. Another thing, he still likes to go out and drink and stuff with his friends. I'm not saying I don't like to do that as well but he still does it more than I do and it kind of bothers me. I don't even know why it does but it does. I just feel like I have mostly gotten through that stage in my life and i want to move on and stuff. But whatever, he also knows it bugs me and i know he would rather be with me than be out drinking as well so thats nice. And the thing about his daughter. I love his daughter, she is a great girl and we get along awesome. I just never thought I would end up with someone who already has a child. I kind of always wanted to have my husbands first child. But despite all those things, he is everything I always wanted. He treats me so well and makes me so happy. And when it comes down to it, thats all that matters.
In other news, I started working at the school board last week. I really like it. I got called in to two different schools and it was a lot of fun. I worked with a little boy with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome and then with a group of children with learning disabilities. I know i will learn lots and get really good expereince so I'm super excited about it. Its only two days a week but thats fine cause i don't mind my other job anymore.
Alright, this novel is long enough. Love you all...bye:)