Boo erns to the world
I think i've had the worst week of my life... ok well actually no i haven't. I know i've had worse. But this week really sucked and little things have been pissing me off. And then i get into this mood where i must contemplate everything and realized that there is no point to doing anything.
I dread leaving my house...i rather just stay at home and sleep. It all started really started on thrusday night..sure the rest of my week kinda sucked but i'm used to that so i didn't bother me. But on thurday i decided that since my ears hurt i'd go home early. Well i did get to leave an hour early but that was ruined when i was stopped by someone and then talked with them for half an hour. And me being the nice person i am decided to say until i could find a way out, cause that person seemd to be having a bad day so i felt bad. But then it just ruined my night. I had a bad sleep because of my ears. And that seems to be getting better on the other hand. But on my drive home i was so pissed off. And then i started thinking how much i hate life.
I hate my job...and i hate school but apparently i need that to get a good job. And i can't do homework anymore cause i just hate doing it. I know it sounds selfish...but i just don't want to do it anymore.
But i'll do it cause i have to.
And then heaven forbid if i end up with jim for the rest of my life. I love him don't get me wrong but his mother is giving him the house after she dies...so it seems like he'll live there forever. But i refuse to get married and then move in with someones mother. Whether its jim or someone else. I will not do that!
And i don't want jim to be one i go out with before i get married. Well ther was rene but he had a slight case of death when i was going out with him which i didn't think was fair either. But breaking up with jim for that reason is stupid...because i can't expect him to wait for me if things don't work out with someone else. Plus ther is that stupid fact that i love him which seems to get in the way.
Arg! I'm just not a happy person at the moment.
Oh and then there was yesterday...which wasn't so bad but i realize that Darris is paying way too much money to waste time. I decided to visit her at school since i caught her before i got on my bus, but it just ended up backfiring on me. I then should have left earlier, but i didn't, but then i had to walk 10 to the bus stop. The trying to get onto the 60 was hell. It was late...both buses. They come every 10 mins. I just missed one so i waited 10 for a second...and it didn't come...so i waited for a third...and it didn't come...so i had to almost wait an hour for a fucking 60. Which officially ruined friday for me. And then i really wasn't in the mood to do any homework. And i have shit due next week...blah.
Oh and my other complaint (and no offence darris but..)but i wanted Darris to get cab slip because she works at 6.00 today and i got a crappy shift at 9.00, so why would i want to wake up at 5.30 if i didn't have to. Well she forgot...and thats ok...but then she tells me that if i want her to have a cab slip i can go pick it up...what the fuck...why should i do it. Its not my fault i forgot...and so what if i get home early..i picked up her fucking piercing on my way home from school the other day but its not like she can't do it either on her way home from school. So my point is that she could go to convergys to pick up a cab slip since she forgot. Blah
I love you Darris but that just irked me.
And while i'm at it let me complain about the snow...I'm tired of it now and i hate it! Its so bloody fucking cold.
And i don't feel like going to jim's tonight. But there is something wrong with his truck and i would feel bad if i made him drive to the city.
And i hate talking to people!
I"m a big hater! *giggles* at first i wrote hatter which reminded me of alice in wonderland.
Ok so my bad mood comes and goes and i'm can be quite funny..ask brodie he thought i was funny ranting yesterday at the bus stop.
I feel better but i know the longer i stay here the worse my mood will get.
Oh and i guess i better mention the funny story from yesterday...which almost made it worth visiting Darris...
So this guy in Darris' class ask her if i'm in the army...? err uh i guess you're wondering why, well i was wearing and army green dress with some stupid little army thingie stitched on the side...nowhere near to looking like authentic army gear. But uh yeah...so i died laughing yesterday.
I dread leaving my house...i rather just stay at home and sleep. It all started really started on thrusday night..sure the rest of my week kinda sucked but i'm used to that so i didn't bother me. But on thurday i decided that since my ears hurt i'd go home early. Well i did get to leave an hour early but that was ruined when i was stopped by someone and then talked with them for half an hour. And me being the nice person i am decided to say until i could find a way out, cause that person seemd to be having a bad day so i felt bad. But then it just ruined my night. I had a bad sleep because of my ears. And that seems to be getting better on the other hand. But on my drive home i was so pissed off. And then i started thinking how much i hate life.
I hate my job...and i hate school but apparently i need that to get a good job. And i can't do homework anymore cause i just hate doing it. I know it sounds selfish...but i just don't want to do it anymore.
But i'll do it cause i have to.
And then heaven forbid if i end up with jim for the rest of my life. I love him don't get me wrong but his mother is giving him the house after she dies...so it seems like he'll live there forever. But i refuse to get married and then move in with someones mother. Whether its jim or someone else. I will not do that!
And i don't want jim to be one i go out with before i get married. Well ther was rene but he had a slight case of death when i was going out with him which i didn't think was fair either. But breaking up with jim for that reason is stupid...because i can't expect him to wait for me if things don't work out with someone else. Plus ther is that stupid fact that i love him which seems to get in the way.
Arg! I'm just not a happy person at the moment.
Oh and then there was yesterday...which wasn't so bad but i realize that Darris is paying way too much money to waste time. I decided to visit her at school since i caught her before i got on my bus, but it just ended up backfiring on me. I then should have left earlier, but i didn't, but then i had to walk 10 to the bus stop. The trying to get onto the 60 was hell. It was late...both buses. They come every 10 mins. I just missed one so i waited 10 for a second...and it didn't come...so i waited for a third...and it didn't come...so i had to almost wait an hour for a fucking 60. Which officially ruined friday for me. And then i really wasn't in the mood to do any homework. And i have shit due next week...blah.
Oh and my other complaint (and no offence darris but..)but i wanted Darris to get cab slip because she works at 6.00 today and i got a crappy shift at 9.00, so why would i want to wake up at 5.30 if i didn't have to. Well she forgot...and thats ok...but then she tells me that if i want her to have a cab slip i can go pick it up...what the fuck...why should i do it. Its not my fault i forgot...and so what if i get home early..i picked up her fucking piercing on my way home from school the other day but its not like she can't do it either on her way home from school. So my point is that she could go to convergys to pick up a cab slip since she forgot. Blah
I love you Darris but that just irked me.
And while i'm at it let me complain about the snow...I'm tired of it now and i hate it! Its so bloody fucking cold.
And i don't feel like going to jim's tonight. But there is something wrong with his truck and i would feel bad if i made him drive to the city.
And i hate talking to people!
I"m a big hater! *giggles* at first i wrote hatter which reminded me of alice in wonderland.
Ok so my bad mood comes and goes and i'm can be quite funny..ask brodie he thought i was funny ranting yesterday at the bus stop.
I feel better but i know the longer i stay here the worse my mood will get.
Oh and i guess i better mention the funny story from yesterday...which almost made it worth visiting Darris...
So this guy in Darris' class ask her if i'm in the army...? err uh i guess you're wondering why, well i was wearing and army green dress with some stupid little army thingie stitched on the side...nowhere near to looking like authentic army gear. But uh yeah...so i died laughing yesterday.