who said it was going to be like this
ugh life. not that it is terrible. just, different. i guess i thought at 24 i would have had more figured out.
school is still on the brinks. i work every single day and barely have any fun. i want fun. and friends. i dont feel like i have those anymore bc i work all the time.
i work and still i have no money. as broke as the day i was born. and i spend money on what? fun? i dont have that. clothes? sure, but i still hate everything in my closet.
no really i do. i want to be more eclectic. more vintage. less comfortable. i see girls that i think are amazingly beautiful and i ask myself "why are you not more like that?" would that help me fall in love? no. but i might give it a shot. i like to change up my look. but it costs money!
i hate money. i want to run away. i saw this a lot. and i mean it everytime.
pandora quit playing elton john!
i feel depressed. i smile at work and i get by, but i come home at night and die a little. i am too busy to think about how fucked up my life is. i work too much to think about how big of a loser i am. but hey, at least i work. it is the foundation of defining oneself, well part of that foundation. according to neitzsche. man i miss that. reading and discovering. i read a little every morning, bc i am awake. but i am not divulging in reading like i used to. ok, if i am going to change anything its that.
fuck, katie you have to get it together. nothing is that bad! just some bumps, because you have made poor choices, but there is always a way back. you cant fall off a mountain--kerouac said that. ok, i am going to get my shit together. man, i have to. i am getting too old.
course of action: start saving (for real!)
eat better
find time to read
go out every now and then to be with friends (but not solely to drink)
learn something new weekly!
really thats all i need. get my mind and body back into shape! i think every post is similar to this one, but hey ill learn eventually. right?
who cares. well i care, but i mean who cares if i say the same thing over and over again. i mean it, and one day yeah ill change. its cool. i always get by.
i am going to watch weeds. i get to sleep in tomorrow and i am looking forward to that.
love you all.
school is still on the brinks. i work every single day and barely have any fun. i want fun. and friends. i dont feel like i have those anymore bc i work all the time.
i work and still i have no money. as broke as the day i was born. and i spend money on what? fun? i dont have that. clothes? sure, but i still hate everything in my closet.
no really i do. i want to be more eclectic. more vintage. less comfortable. i see girls that i think are amazingly beautiful and i ask myself "why are you not more like that?" would that help me fall in love? no. but i might give it a shot. i like to change up my look. but it costs money!
i hate money. i want to run away. i saw this a lot. and i mean it everytime.
pandora quit playing elton john!
i feel depressed. i smile at work and i get by, but i come home at night and die a little. i am too busy to think about how fucked up my life is. i work too much to think about how big of a loser i am. but hey, at least i work. it is the foundation of defining oneself, well part of that foundation. according to neitzsche. man i miss that. reading and discovering. i read a little every morning, bc i am awake. but i am not divulging in reading like i used to. ok, if i am going to change anything its that.
fuck, katie you have to get it together. nothing is that bad! just some bumps, because you have made poor choices, but there is always a way back. you cant fall off a mountain--kerouac said that. ok, i am going to get my shit together. man, i have to. i am getting too old.
course of action: start saving (for real!)
eat better
find time to read
go out every now and then to be with friends (but not solely to drink)
learn something new weekly!
really thats all i need. get my mind and body back into shape! i think every post is similar to this one, but hey ill learn eventually. right?
who cares. well i care, but i mean who cares if i say the same thing over and over again. i mean it, and one day yeah ill change. its cool. i always get by.
i am going to watch weeds. i get to sleep in tomorrow and i am looking forward to that.
love you all.