when it rains, it pours
a few weeks ago i wrote a post about how i made a rational decision. and it looks like it was the wrong one, bc nothing adds up anymore.
i cant go back to school. no really i cant. they wont let me. when i talked to auburn, they said even if i pay the amount of the loan in full it will take 30 days to process it. they recommended i just go back in the fall. so, i just consolidated my loans and will start paying them now. so long school.
i guess i can focus on work now. it has been very stressful lately. i have a lot to do. now that i am not in school i can work harder and maybe get a raise. that would be nice.
also, i found out last night that my mother had a stroke. that is just great. it was a little one. she said that one day at work she realized that she couldnt see out of one eye. the eye doctor said she had a hemmorage in the back of her eye, aka a stroke, and that more than likely more of her arteries are clogged. basically if she doesnt take care of this asap she will have another possibly worse stroke. for those of you who do not know, my grandfather had a stroke when i was 6. he was a complete vegetable: couldnt hear, see, speak, or understand anything at all. he "lived" like that for 8 years. he had no idea who we were when we went to visit him and i still to this day cry over my grandfather who was an amazing man and a role model for finding my future soulmate.
i honestly do not know how much more i can take right now. i have hit an emotional breaking point. i am about to take the pups for a walk to get some fresh air and play with my lovelies. at least i have them and whitney for a few more months. i think i might move in with my aunt. she lives in decatur, closer to work. its not my first choice, but she offered. but that is if i decide to stay on the school path. otherwise i am getting out of here, bc this move to atlanta has been a lot more pain than pleasure.
love you guys.
i cant go back to school. no really i cant. they wont let me. when i talked to auburn, they said even if i pay the amount of the loan in full it will take 30 days to process it. they recommended i just go back in the fall. so, i just consolidated my loans and will start paying them now. so long school.
i guess i can focus on work now. it has been very stressful lately. i have a lot to do. now that i am not in school i can work harder and maybe get a raise. that would be nice.
also, i found out last night that my mother had a stroke. that is just great. it was a little one. she said that one day at work she realized that she couldnt see out of one eye. the eye doctor said she had a hemmorage in the back of her eye, aka a stroke, and that more than likely more of her arteries are clogged. basically if she doesnt take care of this asap she will have another possibly worse stroke. for those of you who do not know, my grandfather had a stroke when i was 6. he was a complete vegetable: couldnt hear, see, speak, or understand anything at all. he "lived" like that for 8 years. he had no idea who we were when we went to visit him and i still to this day cry over my grandfather who was an amazing man and a role model for finding my future soulmate.
i honestly do not know how much more i can take right now. i have hit an emotional breaking point. i am about to take the pups for a walk to get some fresh air and play with my lovelies. at least i have them and whitney for a few more months. i think i might move in with my aunt. she lives in decatur, closer to work. its not my first choice, but she offered. but that is if i decide to stay on the school path. otherwise i am getting out of here, bc this move to atlanta has been a lot more pain than pleasure.
love you guys.