Trust is such an issue with me.
Well today wasnt much. I got up at 8am only because I had a doctors app. Seeing that my knees are acting up once again. It seems that I will be getting lazer surgery soon. Well I went to borders, got a new book. Sat down drank some coffee and read the new book. Its great I have so many memories from there. Some I rather not remember, and some I love to death. I am going to pick up jessi, around 4or5 when ever my mother alows me to.
I think today is a great day. I feel so comfy. Only because I have a white denim skirt on with my guk's shirt and my jacket with my pink and grey converse's. Don't I sound hott??lol.
Lets see. Last night you already know was great. The last time I got roses was from my ex, garcia. For our one month anaversery. I got twelve of em. I still have the vase only because its cool lookin. I remember he use to give me flowers all the time. I think that was the only good thing he did. Well there were others but we will not get into that.
Wow, I can't wait to hang with jess. Someone from the old days. Grant you its only been sense yesturday I saw her. But we actually never get to hang out. I think I am going to take her to the mall. Or were ever she wants to go. We always have fun in the car. I always switch the radio station to rap. Turn the bass up and slant down. And be like ooo yah i am soo cool now. She tells me how fired and done I am. Ashley wow, havent talked to her in about 4 weeks. Its more of a relief than sucky. Only because time away from her is all I need right now.
I got told yesturday or the other day more along the lines that when I get my job, I can ask my great grandmother for a loan. And get my cugar that I wanted. Because my family trusts me with money more than they do my brothers. I don't know why. I am the one in rehab for fucking using and shit. But hey what ever floats their boats right.
I sorta mist school today. Its my relief from everything. My hideaway. My mother and I were talking about the time I was suprised with eric. I don't know how that actually came up. But I told her I hated suprises now.
I have so many new friends. And I have such trust issueses. I am so scared to trust anyof them. Shit I can't even trust my own mother. Everyone I have ever known I have thought of as an enemy. And thats sad.
The whole time Kyle is in the shower he is singing rap...AHHHH. I think I am going to pull the cord on him. HAHA.......
Danielle