why hello children...fuck you!...j/k i love you!
Anyway, yeah i officually hate AOL and i am hopeing so badly that my sister will put people PC on my computer today instead of AOL. Becuase it makes my lap top run so fucking slow! today matt killed me when we were playing a video game and keaton got mad at him and told him to let me win :) hehe. I feel special! but, yeah...i am bored. And i am poor and matt tryed to give me his money and i siad no way! i am always borrowing money from you and i dont want to. I have to take my purse back to wal-mart tomarrow anyway theres 7 dollars right there. But yeah...i am sooooo bored. And i feel bad about crying infront of keaton for some reason i just cant get over it. I am so upset about crying infront of him. It tells him i am weak. I dont like acually being weak. And if he knows i am weak he can hurt me. And that scares me. jason knew i was weak and he took advantage of it. I hope keaton doesnt do that. Keaton is nothin glike jason. besides the ass-holyness. But keaton seems tobe kinda not all knowing around me. Like he doesnt know what to think of me all the time. Which no one ever does so it doesnt matter. You wanna know what my favorite moment of my whole entire week is? Friday and saturday seeing keaton. I love date night. I love laying there with him in perfect harmony with someone you can connect with so well on so many levels and feel good and right about it. i feel happyest when i am with him, laying there wrapped inhis museculey (spelled absolutly wrong) warm arms feeling wanted and needed and loved. I dont get that feeling very often and when i do i like tokeep it around as long as possible. I believe that is why my mother says i am going to be a good parent becuase i need to feel needed and becuase i am going to act just like them at age 3. I will proubly play with there toys more than them. (thats the sad part). But Not 2 months ago i was looking for someone that i could date for a few years then amrry and love for the rest of my life. And if he wants the same stuff as me i think keaton could be him. But right now i dont really want that as much. I just dont want this high of love i am on to end. Its pure tranquility when i am with him or even next to him. I love to learn over and kiss his forehead or something cute and sweet and small like that. Also, he takes care of me. When i get a boo-boo he kisses it and makes it better. If he called me more often and wanted to hang out with me and didnt get annoyed right now he would be the perfect boyfriend. I could not be any happyer about our relationship. Now my house on the other hand is different. I HATE IT HERE. i mean when my mom and dad are seperate its ok but when they aretogether theres always a fight. And i cant take it. I hate it when people fight and it pisses me off when they fight. And it scares me. I dont like them togther. they are scary toghter and my dad is scary seperate.I love you keaton! bye.