i wish
i wish i had a life to write about...
i am probably one of the most boring people a person could ever meet...
i do nothing except go to class and work...
every once in a while i go and hang out with heather...ok...more than every once in a while...
but she's it...heather is basically my life cuz she's the only one...
hmm...i guess there's beth, but she's just my roomie...so we're always home since she's got an idiotic boyfriend who thinks he owns her and can tell her where she can be and when she can be there...dumb...guh...frustrating...
umm...yep...i am pretty sure i really am a loser...i pretty much live my life through other people...like i have no stories of my own so i tell everyone else's and complain about them...
this is exactly why i never write on this except for when i want to complain about how lame i am...i think i am socially awkward...
i just don't know how to be my own person...i completely rely on everyone else to show me what to do and i don't ever do anything for myself...
like...seriously i would not have made it out of high school if i didn't have people in my classes who let me copy (for hw...not tests...that's bad) or show me what to do and all that junk...
i don't know how to talk to people and i would never even know where to begin with a boy...geesh! which is highly likely why i do not have one of those...
i decided that i am very afraid of windows, darkness and aloneness...especially all together...its freaky to be home alone with all those weirdos out there...it freaks me out! i wish beth would come home soon...but i shall not see her til tomorrow night...good thing that heather and i shall maybe go to meijer tomorrow...
my mom did not call me back and that makes me even more sad...and actually a little angry but i guess more sad...when kirsten does not have heather...kirsten has no one...i dont like it...
hum...perhaps i shall take pictures of my night alone...
goodnight to LiVEJOURNAL!
i am probably one of the most boring people a person could ever meet...
i do nothing except go to class and work...
every once in a while i go and hang out with heather...ok...more than every once in a while...
but she's it...heather is basically my life cuz she's the only one...
hmm...i guess there's beth, but she's just my roomie...so we're always home since she's got an idiotic boyfriend who thinks he owns her and can tell her where she can be and when she can be there...dumb...guh...frustrating...
umm...yep...i am pretty sure i really am a loser...i pretty much live my life through other people...like i have no stories of my own so i tell everyone else's and complain about them...
this is exactly why i never write on this except for when i want to complain about how lame i am...i think i am socially awkward...
i just don't know how to be my own person...i completely rely on everyone else to show me what to do and i don't ever do anything for myself...
like...seriously i would not have made it out of high school if i didn't have people in my classes who let me copy (for hw...not tests...that's bad) or show me what to do and all that junk...
i don't know how to talk to people and i would never even know where to begin with a boy...geesh! which is highly likely why i do not have one of those...
i decided that i am very afraid of windows, darkness and aloneness...especially all together...its freaky to be home alone with all those weirdos out there...it freaks me out! i wish beth would come home soon...but i shall not see her til tomorrow night...good thing that heather and i shall maybe go to meijer tomorrow...
my mom did not call me back and that makes me even more sad...and actually a little angry but i guess more sad...when kirsten does not have heather...kirsten has no one...i dont like it...
hum...perhaps i shall take pictures of my night alone...
goodnight to LiVEJOURNAL!