I am in love with a french boy
ok so this is going to be long- i have 2 nights to talk to you about-- both consisting of similar people and in the same place but both so utterly different. and i need to get this out of my system- so for those of you who cant read things longer than one line- just a warning.
so- friday-- after hanging out with marie and justine in the afternoon, me marie and mariA went to this guy davids house. hes 16 and a total sweetie- hes french 2. and rich as fuck- his house is amazing. so he had his friends over from the lycee and his other friend over from paris. who was tall and blond and so cute. so we arrived and all the guys came out in a procession and kissed us (twice- once on each cheek)- it was so french and exciting. so yah- we hung out with david (bc u kno how it is wen u dont kno ppl)- and then we went upstairs to watch a movie- and it was so shit--and david had dissapeared. so marie and i went out onto his terrace to find him- and it turns out they had climbed the ladder onto davids roof. so we joined them. and it was david (his friend raphael- who i really actually love) and maria. so we sat down with them (well actually i was on them just bc it was so fucking cold)- and we chatted and stuff...and then david had to go get something and maria went with him...so marie raphael and i were sitting on the roof looking at the stars and all snuggled- bc it was so so so soooo cold. and ahhh omg- i love raphael im serious...his english is like amazing but hes still cute and french- and then maria joined us and so did david and we were all in a huddle...and raphael and i were discussing life...and he was being all gentlemanly and offering me his jacket and keeping me warm and ahhhhh. lol im such a girl. but so we stayed up there until one just chilling and then the rest of davids french friends came (bringing a duvet- lol) except the happy mood was broken by the fact that one of them was smoking a joint. but b4 that marie and i were practicing out french and they were laughing with us and it was sooo nice. so then at 1 i had to leave and come home- so marie and maria and i took a cab and marie came back to my house to sleep over. so- ok that was night one and the begining of my "i actually really do like raphael" phase.--> omg its so good he doesnt have aol or doesnt kno wat this is-- bc he would b like ahhh fuck shes stalking me.
ok so ya- then today (sat) it was elises bday- and i hung out with ppl during the day...and my friend justine and i came back to my house to get ready...for dinner tonite. so i had straight hair and makeup and cool new shoes and i was soooo excited bc we were gonna c david and (my love- aka the french boy...just bc his name is so long and hard to say haha)- and out of the 10 of us that were going to the party 2nite- only 6 of us were going to davids...just bc to b honest we really didnt feel like having ppl like V and ally come and b all- annoying. bc the best thing about friday nite was how uncompetative it was-- but with girls like V and ali it suddenly starts being really competitive. so we kind of didnt mention we were going to davids. so we went. and it was soooooososososo bad. david was being sweet as ever...and i love him he is so cute. but this girl was there...and she was being bitchy and annoying and all the guys were being stupid- and they were planning on going out to this club 2nite- tantra. and then justine told v that we were at davids and that we didnt want her 2 come. so then we were like- o fucking shit! so then V and ally came- and i was having one of my traumas and feeling as guilty as fuck- like i tend to do- and then ally was being this huge huge bitch- i hate her. and then v was also being a huge huge bitch. so we were leaving and i apologized and she was like--- ehh. and i was like fucking hell i cannot go thru my first month at southbank again. it was so so so awful- EVERYONE hated me. signe espesh- fucking whore god i hate her. but i was freaking out bc ive moved on from that now and i was so afraid that they were gonna start saying i was this huge bitch and then i would have to deal with the whole hatred thing again. so i was crying and justine was crying (bc she felt bad for telling V) and marie was crying bc she hated how shallow and horrible the ppl were at this school. so we went home furious. and im not sad anymore- im so angry. they wouldnt have been pissed at us if we had all just gone back to a girls house...its only bc there were boys there. grrrrrrrr. w/e tho- i dont need them- its almost the summer...and marie and i r planning to go to paris weekend after this to visit out love raphael. or see him tomorro b4 he goes back to france :-(- ok im sorry this was so long. im exhausted- and going to sleep now.
bisou (in honor of the frenchness)
so- friday-- after hanging out with marie and justine in the afternoon, me marie and mariA went to this guy davids house. hes 16 and a total sweetie- hes french 2. and rich as fuck- his house is amazing. so he had his friends over from the lycee and his other friend over from paris. who was tall and blond and so cute. so we arrived and all the guys came out in a procession and kissed us (twice- once on each cheek)- it was so french and exciting. so yah- we hung out with david (bc u kno how it is wen u dont kno ppl)- and then we went upstairs to watch a movie- and it was so shit--and david had dissapeared. so marie and i went out onto his terrace to find him- and it turns out they had climbed the ladder onto davids roof. so we joined them. and it was david (his friend raphael- who i really actually love) and maria. so we sat down with them (well actually i was on them just bc it was so fucking cold)- and we chatted and stuff...and then david had to go get something and maria went with him...so marie raphael and i were sitting on the roof looking at the stars and all snuggled- bc it was so so so soooo cold. and ahhh omg- i love raphael im serious...his english is like amazing but hes still cute and french- and then maria joined us and so did david and we were all in a huddle...and raphael and i were discussing life...and he was being all gentlemanly and offering me his jacket and keeping me warm and ahhhhh. lol im such a girl. but so we stayed up there until one just chilling and then the rest of davids french friends came (bringing a duvet- lol) except the happy mood was broken by the fact that one of them was smoking a joint. but b4 that marie and i were practicing out french and they were laughing with us and it was sooo nice. so then at 1 i had to leave and come home- so marie and maria and i took a cab and marie came back to my house to sleep over. so- ok that was night one and the begining of my "i actually really do like raphael" phase.--> omg its so good he doesnt have aol or doesnt kno wat this is-- bc he would b like ahhh fuck shes stalking me.
ok so ya- then today (sat) it was elises bday- and i hung out with ppl during the day...and my friend justine and i came back to my house to get ready...for dinner tonite. so i had straight hair and makeup and cool new shoes and i was soooo excited bc we were gonna c david and (my love- aka the french boy...just bc his name is so long and hard to say haha)- and out of the 10 of us that were going to the party 2nite- only 6 of us were going to davids...just bc to b honest we really didnt feel like having ppl like V and ally come and b all- annoying. bc the best thing about friday nite was how uncompetative it was-- but with girls like V and ali it suddenly starts being really competitive. so we kind of didnt mention we were going to davids. so we went. and it was soooooososososo bad. david was being sweet as ever...and i love him he is so cute. but this girl was there...and she was being bitchy and annoying and all the guys were being stupid- and they were planning on going out to this club 2nite- tantra. and then justine told v that we were at davids and that we didnt want her 2 come. so then we were like- o fucking shit! so then V and ally came- and i was having one of my traumas and feeling as guilty as fuck- like i tend to do- and then ally was being this huge huge bitch- i hate her. and then v was also being a huge huge bitch. so we were leaving and i apologized and she was like--- ehh. and i was like fucking hell i cannot go thru my first month at southbank again. it was so so so awful- EVERYONE hated me. signe espesh- fucking whore god i hate her. but i was freaking out bc ive moved on from that now and i was so afraid that they were gonna start saying i was this huge bitch and then i would have to deal with the whole hatred thing again. so i was crying and justine was crying (bc she felt bad for telling V) and marie was crying bc she hated how shallow and horrible the ppl were at this school. so we went home furious. and im not sad anymore- im so angry. they wouldnt have been pissed at us if we had all just gone back to a girls house...its only bc there were boys there. grrrrrrrr. w/e tho- i dont need them- its almost the summer...and marie and i r planning to go to paris weekend after this to visit out love raphael. or see him tomorro b4 he goes back to france :-(- ok im sorry this was so long. im exhausted- and going to sleep now.
bisou (in honor of the frenchness)