too busy writing your tragedy
I dont understand teenage love. or whatever the fuck it is.
its all so COMPLICATED...
and i dont understand people. i try to but they are incomprehensible. no one seems to give a damn about anyone other than themseleves and im not like that. Well i am to some degree but i want to know what other people are feeling and why they are and how they came to think that way. Its strange bc i dont feel like i know my friends. i want to be let in but i feel like they dont want to open the doors. eh.
also- the other night i went to a drug talk for parents at my school w/ leila. her personal project is on addiction and she dragged me along with her- but to be honest i was interested. The funny thing is though- i was sitting there watching all the adults and i didnt feel any fear. atall. i am not afraid of adults i dont know, i feel oddly calm when im with them. but when it comes to being in a room full of strangers my own age? i know i would cry i would just be so terrified. I have people phobia. lol. I told my mother this and she couldnt understand what i was talking about. she thinks im so confident which i suppose goes to show how much we really dont know about eachother- even our own family.
On a separate note, i was talking to my mother about the relationship she has with her father. they really dont get on, atall. and he has cancer. i feel like they need to get over all the problems they have with eachother and just talk. i know its movie-esque (lol) but i really want them to "re-unite". Shes his first born after all! anyway- im gonna make her call him before she leaves for italy w/ my dad.
time to study
peace & love
p.s- in the words of zac- im a model.......of efficiancy!!!!
hahahahahahahaha that makes me laugh alot.
its all so COMPLICATED...
and i dont understand people. i try to but they are incomprehensible. no one seems to give a damn about anyone other than themseleves and im not like that. Well i am to some degree but i want to know what other people are feeling and why they are and how they came to think that way. Its strange bc i dont feel like i know my friends. i want to be let in but i feel like they dont want to open the doors. eh.
also- the other night i went to a drug talk for parents at my school w/ leila. her personal project is on addiction and she dragged me along with her- but to be honest i was interested. The funny thing is though- i was sitting there watching all the adults and i didnt feel any fear. atall. i am not afraid of adults i dont know, i feel oddly calm when im with them. but when it comes to being in a room full of strangers my own age? i know i would cry i would just be so terrified. I have people phobia. lol. I told my mother this and she couldnt understand what i was talking about. she thinks im so confident which i suppose goes to show how much we really dont know about eachother- even our own family.
On a separate note, i was talking to my mother about the relationship she has with her father. they really dont get on, atall. and he has cancer. i feel like they need to get over all the problems they have with eachother and just talk. i know its movie-esque (lol) but i really want them to "re-unite". Shes his first born after all! anyway- im gonna make her call him before she leaves for italy w/ my dad.
time to study
peace & love
p.s- in the words of zac- im a model.......of efficiancy!!!!
hahahahahahahaha that makes me laugh alot.