the beautiful people are playing a beautiful game
man oh man...
when did things start getting so confusing? i apologize already for this entry... it sucks and its late and im being fucking philosophical or something like that.............
ugh
ugh
ugh
sometimes i dont understand myself... or anything else i know
-- and most of the time i feel like all of this is a complete farce-- that by staying safe im really risking my life. you only live once right?! so why am i acting like this is such a fucking dress rehersal.
also i want to know why im such a horrible person. and i know thats a bad attitude to take on things but i cant seem to do anything right...im mean and manipulative and i just fuck with people because it makes myself feel better. i am COMPLETELY undeserving of everybody... i really am.
ew what kind of loser pours her heart out to her lj hahah? (lindsay cough lindsay)
i think i need to sleep... or something.
night
when did things start getting so confusing? i apologize already for this entry... it sucks and its late and im being fucking philosophical or something like that.............
ugh
ugh
ugh
sometimes i dont understand myself... or anything else i know
-- and most of the time i feel like all of this is a complete farce-- that by staying safe im really risking my life. you only live once right?! so why am i acting like this is such a fucking dress rehersal.
also i want to know why im such a horrible person. and i know thats a bad attitude to take on things but i cant seem to do anything right...im mean and manipulative and i just fuck with people because it makes myself feel better. i am COMPLETELY undeserving of everybody... i really am.
ew what kind of loser pours her heart out to her lj hahah? (lindsay cough lindsay)
i think i need to sleep... or something.
night