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we "broke up." this night has been way too crazy but its not yet last call so me and some of the roomies are headed downtown because god damn we need a beer. the 15 or 16 months that thomas and i were friends and whatever else more that was is all over now. i'll miss jon barr. almost feels like the end of an era. life is wild. time to take my stoned ass downtown to get a drink. peace.
after a couple hours, i'm back. everything is very clear right now. im not sure how or why but for some reason I'm feeling pretty good about the end of thomas and myself. after talkin with mizzle and nizzle i realized that this is deep down a good thing. i choked back some tears right after it happened and threw my phone across the room and proceeded to do some yaegar shots but i know i'm going to be just fine and there are good things to come. i knew it all along but shrugged it off but i needed more than him anyways. we went downtown in a fucked up state dressed like damn fools. and let me tell u, wearing leggings in downtown athens in 2005 is straight up liberating. i was wearing them under one of my ridiculous hippie skirts so no one could see them but damn i felt good just knowing they were there, haha. last year when i was down i would dream about having ppl to go out and grab a drink at the bar late at night without giving a fuck what the hell we looked like and i have that now and it makes me smile. my new years resolution officially starts now and it is to keep it real--be true to myself, in touch with my real emotions and not just fuckin around and fooling myself, and being as ridiculous and weird as always. maybe i should go to bed, it's 3:30 a.m. and i have class tomorrow. but first, a brief re-cap of my day:
1. class where teacher seems to have serious douche potential, but doesnt require a textbook so therefore ok
2. kick ass class where the teacher walked in saying "what up" and straight up told us he doesnt give a shit if we come to class
3. "observed" at the ghetto ass daycare as a part of my job app process--
heard two 4 year olds bust out some Ludacris and another little guy rappin some ying yang twins
4. made some bomb chili
5. drank a yager bomb at 7 on a monday night, chilled with ronnie and heather
6. sara showed up and patrick came over too
7. thomas and i "broke up"
8. yeager shots
9. got BAKED
10. talked to mizz
11. sketch ass bitches rolled into el centro at 1:15 or so (me, nizz, mizz) after rockin out to CCR in the car of course--it felt like it was out of a movie (though I was still pretty lit at this point)
12. asked myself "what am i doing with my life?" though this is nothing new....
after a couple hours, i'm back. everything is very clear right now. im not sure how or why but for some reason I'm feeling pretty good about the end of thomas and myself. after talkin with mizzle and nizzle i realized that this is deep down a good thing. i choked back some tears right after it happened and threw my phone across the room and proceeded to do some yaegar shots but i know i'm going to be just fine and there are good things to come. i knew it all along but shrugged it off but i needed more than him anyways. we went downtown in a fucked up state dressed like damn fools. and let me tell u, wearing leggings in downtown athens in 2005 is straight up liberating. i was wearing them under one of my ridiculous hippie skirts so no one could see them but damn i felt good just knowing they were there, haha. last year when i was down i would dream about having ppl to go out and grab a drink at the bar late at night without giving a fuck what the hell we looked like and i have that now and it makes me smile. my new years resolution officially starts now and it is to keep it real--be true to myself, in touch with my real emotions and not just fuckin around and fooling myself, and being as ridiculous and weird as always. maybe i should go to bed, it's 3:30 a.m. and i have class tomorrow. but first, a brief re-cap of my day:
1. class where teacher seems to have serious douche potential, but doesnt require a textbook so therefore ok
2. kick ass class where the teacher walked in saying "what up" and straight up told us he doesnt give a shit if we come to class
3. "observed" at the ghetto ass daycare as a part of my job app process--
heard two 4 year olds bust out some Ludacris and another little guy rappin some ying yang twins
4. made some bomb chili
5. drank a yager bomb at 7 on a monday night, chilled with ronnie and heather
6. sara showed up and patrick came over too
7. thomas and i "broke up"
8. yeager shots
9. got BAKED
10. talked to mizz
11. sketch ass bitches rolled into el centro at 1:15 or so (me, nizz, mizz) after rockin out to CCR in the car of course--it felt like it was out of a movie (though I was still pretty lit at this point)
12. asked myself "what am i doing with my life?" though this is nothing new....