a pleasant surprise
Man I can't describe how excellent it feels to be done with school and not have anything hanging over my head. It's still taking some adjusting, it's like I feel like I should be doing something but I don't have anything I have to do so I sit around and chill and split a bottle of Andre with Ana. hehe. So last night was crazy, a very good kinda crazy though. Being the last night of the semester a bunch of us went downtown. Tdawg mentioned online the night before that he wanted to come, but of course I didn't take him seriously or count on his word cuz he has a way of backing out. Well he called me while I was taking a nap and I called him back and he told me he needed directions and he was on his way. I was happy about that, we haven't hung out since fall break when I went down there for a keg party. Just like two days ago I was saying that I really needed to just get over him and stop whatever the hell is going on because I didn't see it going anywhere and that he didnt really like me, it was just all in my head. Well, aparently I was wrong. He acts a little different to me now. First of all he came to Athens by himself (a first), then he bought me some drinks downtown without me even having to ask for some, danced with me at Roadhouse--he has always REFUSED to dance. We broke it down to some of the rap shit and even a slow dance to "youve lost that loving feeling" while we belted the words the whole time, it was fun. needless to say we were all trashed as hell. I even saw one of the brothas i danced with at classic city that time blake was here and he remembered me haha. as soon as i walked in he was spittin some game then he was like "girl, i know you can dance." he was fun as hell though. super respectful too--i told him i couldnt be bumpin and grinding cuz my boy was there and he was like "its cool girl, i gotcha." but anyways...tdawg would periodically grab my hand and rub my back and shit like that. so at about 4:30am or so when we decided to go to bed (everyone was still chillin, it was "weed o'clock") but sometime after that i couldnt keep it in anymore and i had to ask what was going on. so heres the dialogue or as much as i can remember.
me: "umm tdawg, i have a question...so, are we still just friends, like do you still consider me just a friend/like me as just a friend after this over a year or so time its been?"
tdawg: "well keri, i think its safe to say theres something more than just a friendship"
ok this will be forever long if i keep that up, so to make a long story short--he admitted to "having feelings" for me and then proceeded to ask me how i feel and he actually used the words, "keri, do you like me or do you like like me??" hahaha. then i told him i did indeed like like him (yes we act like we're 8) and he was like "good, because I like you a lot." (god this sounds horribly lame--my bad). so we got that out in the open and i forgot to mention that he actually brought all this shit up by telling me that he didnt want me to think that he comes to visit just to hook up or anything like that. then a lil later i asked him how he felt abotu our current situation and if he would like to keep it how it is or maybe try somethign new. basically he was just waiting to see what i would say cuz he kept being like "i dotn know, what do you think?" but he did say something along the lines of athens and mville being kinda far from each other but he didnt want to see anyone else. he made it very clear that he hasnt kissed any other girls and he has no desire to date any other girls. so he came up with a plan to visit more often and see where things go (and this was all his own, i hadnt mentioned anything about him coming to visit more or anything.) so yeah, intense talk man. i think there was definite progress though because he was actually complimenting me with like genuine compliments (i consider "keri i think you're a really cool girl" a good compliment) instead of something stupid about my boobs or something. im still in shock that all of this was actually brought out into the open. im really hoping that now after all this talk there will actually be some delivery on his part and that it wasnt all just wasted energy. we've made it clear that we like each other and that we wont date other people so it sounds like this might be turning into an actual relationship.... crazy. needless to say, jason and i are totally done which is good news. i guess i might actually have to tell mama j and stan about tdawg soon, but i dont wanna rush things, haha.
me: "umm tdawg, i have a question...so, are we still just friends, like do you still consider me just a friend/like me as just a friend after this over a year or so time its been?"
tdawg: "well keri, i think its safe to say theres something more than just a friendship"
ok this will be forever long if i keep that up, so to make a long story short--he admitted to "having feelings" for me and then proceeded to ask me how i feel and he actually used the words, "keri, do you like me or do you like like me??" hahaha. then i told him i did indeed like like him (yes we act like we're 8) and he was like "good, because I like you a lot." (god this sounds horribly lame--my bad). so we got that out in the open and i forgot to mention that he actually brought all this shit up by telling me that he didnt want me to think that he comes to visit just to hook up or anything like that. then a lil later i asked him how he felt abotu our current situation and if he would like to keep it how it is or maybe try somethign new. basically he was just waiting to see what i would say cuz he kept being like "i dotn know, what do you think?" but he did say something along the lines of athens and mville being kinda far from each other but he didnt want to see anyone else. he made it very clear that he hasnt kissed any other girls and he has no desire to date any other girls. so he came up with a plan to visit more often and see where things go (and this was all his own, i hadnt mentioned anything about him coming to visit more or anything.) so yeah, intense talk man. i think there was definite progress though because he was actually complimenting me with like genuine compliments (i consider "keri i think you're a really cool girl" a good compliment) instead of something stupid about my boobs or something. im still in shock that all of this was actually brought out into the open. im really hoping that now after all this talk there will actually be some delivery on his part and that it wasnt all just wasted energy. we've made it clear that we like each other and that we wont date other people so it sounds like this might be turning into an actual relationship.... crazy. needless to say, jason and i are totally done which is good news. i guess i might actually have to tell mama j and stan about tdawg soon, but i dont wanna rush things, haha.