thoughts?
So im sitting at work... talking to best friend Adam. And i just started thinking about home. Im starting to miss it. Im here in TX really getting my life back on track. Im really starting to understand what it is to let God run your life. But apart of that is realizing that he is God and he is always in control. There is nothing that surprises him, and if he wants something to happen he can make it happen. So since he is always in control why did my life go so south. I supposedly started fallowing him at the age of six. But this obviously didnt change much in my life. Sometimes i just want to make the rest of the world forget everyhting about me. I hurt so many people that now are great... and i can never get that friendship back. I can never make them judge me on who i am now instead of who i was. Its human nature to remember the bad. When you think of someone who hurt you the pain is always what you think of. Even though most of the time there was some good in that relationship. And i can never take that back. God can forgive me.... but how can i forgive myself.