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so this has been a heck of a weekend. well... my roomates mom passed away on thursday. it was very unexpected, but she was amazing. john, jamin, alfred, and i went to louisiana yesterday for the funeral and jodi talked... she was incredible... i was expecting an alter call... she started by saying that everyone wonders how she can be so strong through this... and she responded that God is her strength. He brought her though so much this year and he can carry her through the rest of her life. its so cliche... i think sometimes we get so used to saying that we "trust" god and he is our "strength". but we never really give him the chance to take the load off our backs. when times are easy we tell everyone else to... but when something happens to us we fall apart. we doubt him. we start saying we dont understand how he could let this happen. but his ways are higher than ours. we cant wrap our minds around why things happen... but he is in complete control... who are we to think we can get in the way of his plan... he spoke the stinken worlds into excistance. he created each person. and he knows what for... we dont. so as i was teling everyone this... my faith was tested as well... my uncle passed away this weekend. so everyhting i was admiring jodi for i got to put into practice in my life. he is in control. i dont udnerstand. it was so sudden... they think a heart atack. i dont get it. but thats ok. im not supposed to understand everyhting. if we could figure it all out than why would we need god. he just continually shows his faithfullness to me each day. you may ask how i can say hes being faithfull when he took my uncle... well... hes given me the grace to stand with him. the joy of the lord is our strength. he has spent this whole summer helping me to truely be joyfull for all hes doing and all he has done... all hes brought me through... everyhting i dont know about my future... but just finding my true unfading joy in him... and this is why... i love God.