Up now that I am Down...

[kerigirl]

I woke up this morning feeling so much better. Daddy is treating me like his "little princess" for the entire weekend. We woke up early, drank coffee, and played with the two bloodhounds. I think that this is just what I needed. Lately, I haven't spent much time down in "little girl" space, which is part of why I have been in such a funk. I need that connection with Daddy. I need to curl up in his lap and breathe in his strong, protective, "Daddy smell", drinking out of my sippy cup, with my blanket and Spike II. I need to be his baby, his little girl. When I don't spend enough time in this head space, the adult in me just shuts down. It's like the little girl in me is what fuels the adult...without time in little girl space, it is very hard for me to function with day to day stuff, with life's little bumps. Being a little girl is a vacation from all of the things that I need to do as an adult. Work. Chores. Just plain "life". I'm not saying that I totally want to "check out" from the adult world. The adult world has it's joys too. But without time in little girl space, I begin to get overwhelmed. Scared. Depressed.

I thank god that I have found my Daddy. That he has found me. To have someone who truly understands this aspect of myself, who embraces it, who loves this about me, is such a blessing...