I love Jakie, I miss my friends, and I'm bored as anything
Well, no one but Alex has updated in a long time. I guess I'll add a little something in . . . . So, I've been home for a few weeks and I'm entirely too bored. On Saturday, despite previous decisions and deliberation, I decided to go to that VAIP thing. Even if I don't find a job that I really like (i.e. a psychologist's office), I will still be getting experience and learning about what employers are really looking for in an employee. Another plus to this program is that I don't have to work for Andrea anymore, which I havne't had to do since Christmas, but she's still a potential employer. She hasn't come after me or called me for help, which is good, but I can almost feel it coming--and I just can't have that.
Jakie came home for a few days, but left early Sunday morning. I miss him so much. I've been having a hard time adjusting to home--home without Jake and without anything but working out and sitting around. While he was home, I was the happiest I've been in a long time. My headaches went away and everything. Even though we can both be jerks to each other from time to time, nothing compares to the happiness we share together.
Because I'm a big bored loser without much to do, I've been doing some wedding planning. Yeah, I know, this big event is three years away, but I just can't help myself. This event is going to be the best planned function in history. Jake thinks I'm silly for already thinking about where everything is going to take place and what my dress and flowers are going to look like, but I just can't help myself. He gave me the ring--I can't help it if I'm a little (definitely verging on a huge understatment) excited.
So, Star Wars came out today. I really want to go see that. Jake is seeing it with his mother right now as I'm writing this entry. She's in Maryland visiting him. Is it wrong that I hate that? I guess all the stuff she's done to Jake--her manipulation and deception--just bothers me. I also hate how she can't accept that other people matter in his life besides her . . . people that really care about him and have other matters on their minds besides themselves and their advancement. Blah.
Ok, that's enough of that. In a way, I want to go out and do something, but in another way, I just want to chill out. Decisions . . . .
Jakie came home for a few days, but left early Sunday morning. I miss him so much. I've been having a hard time adjusting to home--home without Jake and without anything but working out and sitting around. While he was home, I was the happiest I've been in a long time. My headaches went away and everything. Even though we can both be jerks to each other from time to time, nothing compares to the happiness we share together.
Because I'm a big bored loser without much to do, I've been doing some wedding planning. Yeah, I know, this big event is three years away, but I just can't help myself. This event is going to be the best planned function in history. Jake thinks I'm silly for already thinking about where everything is going to take place and what my dress and flowers are going to look like, but I just can't help myself. He gave me the ring--I can't help it if I'm a little (definitely verging on a huge understatment) excited.
So, Star Wars came out today. I really want to go see that. Jake is seeing it with his mother right now as I'm writing this entry. She's in Maryland visiting him. Is it wrong that I hate that? I guess all the stuff she's done to Jake--her manipulation and deception--just bothers me. I also hate how she can't accept that other people matter in his life besides her . . . people that really care about him and have other matters on their minds besides themselves and their advancement. Blah.
Ok, that's enough of that. In a way, I want to go out and do something, but in another way, I just want to chill out. Decisions . . . .