I WANNA BITE DOWN ON A SHOT GUN AND SEND MY BRAINS TOWARD THE SKY…..
And heres what you all have been waiting for….was it worth it? … doubtful.
I was down at the New Amsterdam staring at this yellow-haired girl
Mr. Jones strikes up a conversation with this black-haired flamenco dancer
She dances while his father plays guitar
She's suddenly beautiful
We all want something beautiful
I wish I was beautiful
So come dance this silence down through the morning Cut up Maria!
Show me some of them Spanish dances
Pass me a bottle, Mr. Jones
Believe in me
Help me believe in anything
I want to be someone who believes
Mr. Jones and me tell each other fairy tales
Stare at the beautiful women
"She's looking at you. Ah, no, no, she's looking at me."
Smiling in the bright lights
Coming through in stereo
When everybody loves you, you can never be lonely
I will paint my picture
Paint myself in blue and red and black and gray
All of the beautiful colors are very very meaningful
Gray is my favorite color I felt so symbolic yesterday
If I knew Picasso I would buy myself a gray guitar and play
Mr. Jones and me look into the future
Stare at the beautiful women
"She's looking at you. Uh, I don't think so. She's looking at me."
Standing in the spotlight I bought myself a gray guitar
When everybody loves me, I will never be lonely
I want to be a lion Everybody wants to pass as cats
We all want to be big big stars, but we got different reasons for that
Believe in me because I don't believe in anything
and I want to be someone to believe
Mr. Jones and me stumbling through the barrio Yeah we stare at the beautiful women
"She's perfect for you, Man, there's got to be somebody for me."
I want to be Bob Dylan Mr. Jones wishes he was someone just a little more funky When everybody loves you, son, that's just about as funky as you can be
Mr. Jones and me staring at the video When I look at the television, I want to see me staring right back at me
We all want to be big stars,
but we don't know why and we don't know how
But when everybody loves me,
I'm going to be just about as happy as can be Mr. Jones and me, we're gonna be big stars....
So, How to start this journal. I’m actually taking time on this one to think about everything! (what Jeremy thinks???) Well they say that we look to art to enhance emotions, to draw out feeling and provoke thought. Well that song says a lot about my outlook of the future (or, what I hope for the future) and I just felt I would share that with you all.
So I went in to the recruiters to check out what scores I need to get for my preferred job and walked out slightly annoyed (the dude there is a huge dick…I hates him sooo)
Im semi depressed and that sucks a lot cause I don’t want to be, however this apparently cannot be helped as I have tried many things and just cannot avoid the most depressing thing around…. I just keep running into it. Ah well maybe one day everything will work out ok…. Doubtful since when has anything worked out the way I want it? Bah enough of this im just starting to get angry…. And, for your viewing pleasure…random memes…
wow! That was… special…
Episode 3
So, it seems my “plan” for the end of the year is coming together…just need to save some goddamn money! Fuck! Ah well Im trying to find that second/higher paying job still. I know its out there….somewhere….perhaps if I kill a manager of some joint the would hire me….hmmmm….sounds like it would release some tension…hehehe….
Dont you just wanna kill people sometimes???...
So on Saturday me, britny, Ej, and Manda all walked up to the shoppers and found a grocery cart that was broken. So we threw Ej in it and tried to go though the mcdonalds drive thru…cause it was closed and you needed a car..so we had some wheels. Well bitches at the mcdonalds drive thru wouldn’t let us order so we went over to taco bell who did! ***BOYCOTT THE MCDONALDS ON OLD MILL THEY ARE BASTARDSSS!!!!***
HAHAHA....its amazing what you find on random searches....
So I finally got administrative control on the PC (I changed it when my dad wasn’t looking) and I took AIM off my computer and reloaded it! And it worked perfectly! ….for TWO FUCKING DAYS!!! And now its doing the same old crap again! I hate AOL sooooo bad!
some things are going too far...
On a semi lighter note I finally got MY PC back with a formatted c drive and some more memory so I can have my shit in here now! The only shitty part is its still doing the retarded AIM crap but its bearable now. What can I say?, it seems I have been cursed with the eternal cosmic shame…
Kerek - out
PS im posting this in the middle of the night so no one will see it till tomorrow HA!
I was down at the New Amsterdam staring at this yellow-haired girl
Mr. Jones strikes up a conversation with this black-haired flamenco dancer
She dances while his father plays guitar
She's suddenly beautiful
We all want something beautiful
I wish I was beautiful
So come dance this silence down through the morning Cut up Maria!
Show me some of them Spanish dances
Pass me a bottle, Mr. Jones
Believe in me
Help me believe in anything
I want to be someone who believes
Mr. Jones and me tell each other fairy tales
Stare at the beautiful women
"She's looking at you. Ah, no, no, she's looking at me."
Smiling in the bright lights
Coming through in stereo
When everybody loves you, you can never be lonely
I will paint my picture
Paint myself in blue and red and black and gray
All of the beautiful colors are very very meaningful
Gray is my favorite color I felt so symbolic yesterday
If I knew Picasso I would buy myself a gray guitar and play
Mr. Jones and me look into the future
Stare at the beautiful women
"She's looking at you. Uh, I don't think so. She's looking at me."
Standing in the spotlight I bought myself a gray guitar
When everybody loves me, I will never be lonely
I want to be a lion Everybody wants to pass as cats
We all want to be big big stars, but we got different reasons for that
Believe in me because I don't believe in anything
and I want to be someone to believe
Mr. Jones and me stumbling through the barrio Yeah we stare at the beautiful women
"She's perfect for you, Man, there's got to be somebody for me."
I want to be Bob Dylan Mr. Jones wishes he was someone just a little more funky When everybody loves you, son, that's just about as funky as you can be
Mr. Jones and me staring at the video When I look at the television, I want to see me staring right back at me
We all want to be big stars,
but we don't know why and we don't know how
But when everybody loves me,
I'm going to be just about as happy as can be Mr. Jones and me, we're gonna be big stars....
So, How to start this journal. I’m actually taking time on this one to think about everything! (what Jeremy thinks???) Well they say that we look to art to enhance emotions, to draw out feeling and provoke thought. Well that song says a lot about my outlook of the future (or, what I hope for the future) and I just felt I would share that with you all.
So I went in to the recruiters to check out what scores I need to get for my preferred job and walked out slightly annoyed (the dude there is a huge dick…I hates him sooo)
Im semi depressed and that sucks a lot cause I don’t want to be, however this apparently cannot be helped as I have tried many things and just cannot avoid the most depressing thing around…. I just keep running into it. Ah well maybe one day everything will work out ok…. Doubtful since when has anything worked out the way I want it? Bah enough of this im just starting to get angry…. And, for your viewing pleasure…random memes…
wow! That was… special…
Episode 3
So, it seems my “plan” for the end of the year is coming together…just need to save some goddamn money! Fuck! Ah well Im trying to find that second/higher paying job still. I know its out there….somewhere….perhaps if I kill a manager of some joint the would hire me….hmmmm….sounds like it would release some tension…hehehe….
Dont you just wanna kill people sometimes???...
So on Saturday me, britny, Ej, and Manda all walked up to the shoppers and found a grocery cart that was broken. So we threw Ej in it and tried to go though the mcdonalds drive thru…cause it was closed and you needed a car..so we had some wheels. Well bitches at the mcdonalds drive thru wouldn’t let us order so we went over to taco bell who did! ***BOYCOTT THE MCDONALDS ON OLD MILL THEY ARE BASTARDSSS!!!!***
HAHAHA....its amazing what you find on random searches....
So I finally got administrative control on the PC (I changed it when my dad wasn’t looking) and I took AIM off my computer and reloaded it! And it worked perfectly! ….for TWO FUCKING DAYS!!! And now its doing the same old crap again! I hate AOL sooooo bad!
some things are going too far...
On a semi lighter note I finally got MY PC back with a formatted c drive and some more memory so I can have my shit in here now! The only shitty part is its still doing the retarded AIM crap but its bearable now. What can I say?, it seems I have been cursed with the eternal cosmic shame…
Kerek - out
PS im posting this in the middle of the night so no one will see it till tomorrow HA!