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Wow, what a weird day. Our first soccer game of the year. Apparently I'm just not good enough. I could live with it my freshmen year. I wasn't better than a lot of people and I usually played more than them. Sophomore year I was better but there were a lot of good seniors that year and a new coach. I tried hard but most of the time I just didn’t make the cut. Junior year I worked my butt off. I practiced so hard that I contracted tendentious in my left knee and right ankle. Though that I still pushed myself and it was noticeable. At the end of a bad year I was the only one still trying. Coach gave me the “Coaches Hustle” award and a varsity letter. Finally I thought I was getting recognition for my effort. I was deluded, however. Even after going to pre-season conditioning religiously at 6:00 am, leading the pack in practice, being a senior, being on the team for all four years of high school, and putting every ounce of effort possible into every run, scrimmage, etc., I’m still second rate. There are still ten people in coach’s eyes that are better than me. I don’t understand. Why should I have to start J.V.? Why should I have to when there are over ten new freshmen? Haven’t I earned a spot yet? Maybe I just get to the point where I will try so hard that I injure myself to the point where I cant play soccer anymore. Maybe then coach will see. Maybe then I will get some respect. I don’t even have enough that I can keep the same bus seat because other people push my stuff into the isle and sit down. Maybe some day the world will be fair, but until then nice, hardworking people will just get the shaft.