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soemthing iv not done on line on cam is be sobmisive. to have a master. in rl im coy and bashfull till im lead to be something more. in being submissive im able to act outside my tendencys to gain a hole new demeaner whitch is aluring to me. to be confident that im giving them what they wanted and being punished or praised for it is a rush. if iv doen what is asked the way they had expected it gives me a thrill and a good helping of self asteam. and if not then it gives me something of a chalange to make up for it and a smile as i work for it.
laughs at ones self for the following thought...
if i was single with out children i could be cuite content at deing a submisive hore in an s&n brothel. smirks. thinks on csi the dominatrix brothel on their is very aluring and has allways been.
so im havign a hard time comprehanding it as a role over the net. but only cause iv never done it in that sense. in roleplaying sure iv been the submissive one but thats words to play on not actions. and even the actions are very different over the cam sure one is able to see the other but theirs nothing to do unto them its purly a one way streek and im not sure on what to think of it. but it could be im thinking to much and might injoy it. iv had sex on cam with my hub and with my self but never submisive on cam only bending to their will when chosen.
iv been asked to play a submisive role on a 2 way cam. and not sure what to make of it. the good thing is that its with a close friend although iv never meet them in person i do feel quite at ease and sexy with them when chating and on cam. but not sure if im up to being submisive with them. i love to be told what to do and give my self over uterly. but can it be acomplshed with someone uv never been with or even meet?
the things i love are becoming harder to acomplish. it seams im thinking on theings more them i have n the past or perhaps its iv never been in a situation such as this and am unable to react to it.
to be good at something and confident in it, its hard to think poorly towords it.
aww the delemas one faces
laughs at ones self for the following thought...
if i was single with out children i could be cuite content at deing a submisive hore in an s&n brothel. smirks. thinks on csi the dominatrix brothel on their is very aluring and has allways been.
so im havign a hard time comprehanding it as a role over the net. but only cause iv never done it in that sense. in roleplaying sure iv been the submissive one but thats words to play on not actions. and even the actions are very different over the cam sure one is able to see the other but theirs nothing to do unto them its purly a one way streek and im not sure on what to think of it. but it could be im thinking to much and might injoy it. iv had sex on cam with my hub and with my self but never submisive on cam only bending to their will when chosen.
iv been asked to play a submisive role on a 2 way cam. and not sure what to make of it. the good thing is that its with a close friend although iv never meet them in person i do feel quite at ease and sexy with them when chating and on cam. but not sure if im up to being submisive with them. i love to be told what to do and give my self over uterly. but can it be acomplshed with someone uv never been with or even meet?
the things i love are becoming harder to acomplish. it seams im thinking on theings more them i have n the past or perhaps its iv never been in a situation such as this and am unable to react to it.
to be good at something and confident in it, its hard to think poorly towords it.
aww the delemas one faces