what do you do when you know somethings bad for you...?
well i walk into bry's parentals room to get some toothpaste...SMOKE BOXx! lol i luv her dad. he's a "ph"at stoner! Saturday when i came home from Bry's...my stepdad was gone. after a while he came home and we "talked" about alot of shit! he started crying and apologizing for everything. then i REALLY felt bad. i mean i am always such a bitch to him. and like here he is...MANLY as can be...and yet BAWLiNG. not for me to feel sorry for him. but i think mostly he feels that he is such a burden upon everything. :( it was sad. it's really weird not having him around. but i guess that my mom wants my grandma to move in...so...yea anywho. i went to school today. but only until 3rd period. lol that was a waste of day. right before that i was at break, i was with Sterling, and i really do not know how to act around that boy. it's like...he tells me all this shit how he likes me. but yet...the next minute he's talking to his friends and...it seems like he's laughing at me. or when we're talking, after everything he says that's a little off center or like...umm...NiCE, he says he's just kidding. lol idk. don't get me wrong. he's awesome. and when we do get to talking on the phone its g0od! but i think maybe we all change around our friends...and this is just another example. or maybe i am just the one who is so damn insecure that i cannot realize that he is just joking...aaaahhh! i confuse myself! oh...and on Friday nite when that stupid ass boy was s'posd to come over to BRy's...DON'T TELL ME SHiT iF YOU DON'T MEAN iT. he's a whore! and all he wants is pussy. but i guess that's even, when all i wanted was to drink his VODKA! lol whatever.