.oo2 x hey look, it's october
NaNo's next month. I'm not quite sure what I'll do yet, but I will participate. I'll probably either go for 30k, 60k, or submitting a WotF short story (meaning write it the first 20 or so days, revise & send it in the last bit of the month).
Work was long today. (I almost typed togay, wow.) I took Ashley's shift, so it was eight hours. But Claude's fun to work with, generally, so even though it was FORFREAKINGEVER it seemed, it was cool. I work tomorrow for four and a half hours, and then I have Monday off from school and from work. I'm probably gonna do something with Robert and Alicia (separately probably, but yeah) then. I've been texting Robert like crazy, and now I'm talking to him online, and Egan's on too finally... it's fun. Egan's beating up Cris via internet and Robert (aka pretend david) is flashing his nice rack. And I keep getting harrassed and distracted and... yeah. It's great.
When I was talking about Robert and Dad asked who it was.. I told him, and he said, "Oh, he's the new boyfriend?" And mom said, "No, it's like with CJ, they're friends but there's nothing there." And... I dunno, I'm not sure what to think. Dad was like, "Oh, you mean there's nothing there?" gesturing between his ears, and then clarified to he acts like nothing's there, and I piped in with "CJ ISN'T stupid! CJ doesn't act stupid!" Because he's my friend, haha, and yeah nothing's there in that one.
And a tiny part of me wonders if Mom said that because they're both black, because she doesn't know Robert but for the one time I introduced them for five seconds, so how can she know that at all? She can't. She's assuming.
The thing is I AM flirting with Robert, absolutely. And I wouldn't do anything because I don't have myself sorted out, and it isn't fair to mess with someone's head even if it's because your own isn't straight. So I'm flirting with everyone equally to be fair, but I do kinda like Robert, but I still like Egan, I still like Egan more, I care a whole fucking lot for Egan -- ha. And I know the likelihood that this thing between us will fade away because of the sheer distance between us and the time it'll be there, but I don't want it to, but I don't want to hold on just for the sake of it... and I guess I know that even if one or both of us gets into other relationships now, that doesn't mean there's no later.
...good point.
Anyway, I hardly know Robert, I think I'm just hormonal and he's fun and... attractive, certainly. So I'm not even going to worry. It's funny, I'm not really worried, I think about it a little but it's like... whatever happens will happen, and there's nothing to even worry about now because dude.
So I'm probably seeing a movie with Robert Monday.
I'm sleepy. Jesus it's 2 in the morning already, I should be asleep. But I don't wanna.
Work was long today. (I almost typed togay, wow.) I took Ashley's shift, so it was eight hours. But Claude's fun to work with, generally, so even though it was FORFREAKINGEVER it seemed, it was cool. I work tomorrow for four and a half hours, and then I have Monday off from school and from work. I'm probably gonna do something with Robert and Alicia (separately probably, but yeah) then. I've been texting Robert like crazy, and now I'm talking to him online, and Egan's on too finally... it's fun. Egan's beating up Cris via internet and Robert (aka pretend david) is flashing his nice rack. And I keep getting harrassed and distracted and... yeah. It's great.
When I was talking about Robert and Dad asked who it was.. I told him, and he said, "Oh, he's the new boyfriend?" And mom said, "No, it's like with CJ, they're friends but there's nothing there." And... I dunno, I'm not sure what to think. Dad was like, "Oh, you mean there's nothing there?" gesturing between his ears, and then clarified to he acts like nothing's there, and I piped in with "CJ ISN'T stupid! CJ doesn't act stupid!" Because he's my friend, haha, and yeah nothing's there in that one.
And a tiny part of me wonders if Mom said that because they're both black, because she doesn't know Robert but for the one time I introduced them for five seconds, so how can she know that at all? She can't. She's assuming.
The thing is I AM flirting with Robert, absolutely. And I wouldn't do anything because I don't have myself sorted out, and it isn't fair to mess with someone's head even if it's because your own isn't straight. So I'm flirting with everyone equally to be fair, but I do kinda like Robert, but I still like Egan, I still like Egan more, I care a whole fucking lot for Egan -- ha. And I know the likelihood that this thing between us will fade away because of the sheer distance between us and the time it'll be there, but I don't want it to, but I don't want to hold on just for the sake of it... and I guess I know that even if one or both of us gets into other relationships now, that doesn't mean there's no later.
...good point.
Anyway, I hardly know Robert, I think I'm just hormonal and he's fun and... attractive, certainly. So I'm not even going to worry. It's funny, I'm not really worried, I think about it a little but it's like... whatever happens will happen, and there's nothing to even worry about now because dude.
So I'm probably seeing a movie with Robert Monday.
I'm sleepy. Jesus it's 2 in the morning already, I should be asleep. But I don't wanna.