Been awhile...
Hmm I haven't updated this thing in a while :/
Man, I was depressing lol
Life is life, I suppose. Not sure what is going on with mine these days... It's here, it's there...it's kinda everywhere. Sometimes I feel lonely and sad, sometimes I'm angry, sometimes I wonder what's the point of it all. Mostly, I'm disgusted with myself; with so many things going well in my life, why am I not satisfied? I mean, I still have a job I love, I have family and friends, and my bf isn't horribly bad.
I try not to think about the holidays too much though, it makes me sad. Before it was because I was alone and everyone seemed to have someone special to spend the holidays with, now it just reminds me that Grandma is no longer here. This will be my first Christmas without you Grandma...and that makes me sad.
Another thing that holidays remind me of is that there are just too many people in my life. It's so much work to make everyone happy :/ I got to get presents, I got to make time, I got to make sure everyone gets along. Is it all really worth it? That's sucha horrible thing to think, but sometimes I get tired of everything. No wonder I'm alone hahaha
Man, I was depressing lol
Life is life, I suppose. Not sure what is going on with mine these days... It's here, it's there...it's kinda everywhere. Sometimes I feel lonely and sad, sometimes I'm angry, sometimes I wonder what's the point of it all. Mostly, I'm disgusted with myself; with so many things going well in my life, why am I not satisfied? I mean, I still have a job I love, I have family and friends, and my bf isn't horribly bad.
I try not to think about the holidays too much though, it makes me sad. Before it was because I was alone and everyone seemed to have someone special to spend the holidays with, now it just reminds me that Grandma is no longer here. This will be my first Christmas without you Grandma...and that makes me sad.
Another thing that holidays remind me of is that there are just too many people in my life. It's so much work to make everyone happy :/ I got to get presents, I got to make time, I got to make sure everyone gets along. Is it all really worth it? That's sucha horrible thing to think, but sometimes I get tired of everything. No wonder I'm alone hahaha