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WARNING: THIS POST IS VERY LONG. I'M SORRY BUT I HAD TO GET IT ALL OFF MY CHEST! NO ITS NOT ALL TO ONE PERSON AT ALL. IT ISN'T IN ANY PARTICUALR ORDER. JUST ABUNCHA STUFF. OKAY? SO YEA YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ.
somethings gotta change. idk what but it aint workin. cant you see that? you don't respect me. all i'm here for is for you to bitch about everybody to. can't you see that i'm 15 and i can't take the weight of YOUR world on my shoulders. i promise i'm not NEAR as stronge as i make myself believe i am. why is it always everybody else, then me? i shouldn't have to remind myself to love you. you can't prevent me from making mistakes. maybe i want to make mistakes. maybe i want to learn and grow. i understand you're joking but sometimes the things you stay still hurt. sometimes idk if i can believe you or not? am i too nieve to see the truth? maybe i'm over reacting. why can't you ever talk to me? open up? i feel like ur hiding something from me. why can't it ever be just me and you? why can't it go back to how it was this time last year with us? please don't lie to me. don't say things just because you think they'll make me happy. oneday its gonna be too late. i'm not gonna wonna have real relationship with you but you'll want one with me. but i'm not as forgiving as i should be. i shouldn't be scared to ask you stuff. why can't you trust my judge of character? i know who i should be with and who i shouldn't. why can't you just come up and talk to me once? get to know me? give me a chance? maybe you should start seeing a pattern in the relationships with ppl you've had. maybe it isn't them. its you. my life can't revolve around you. i'm gonna make my decisions based on what i wonna do. not what pleases you. if you don't know the whole situation then don't get mad at me about it. if you wonna know then ask me. you have to realize that things can't stay the same forever. you HAVE TO BE WILLING TO CHANGE. i know stuff that you have no idea i know about you. i chose to not tell you. i chose to forget them. you should be happy for that. i make mistakes. get over it.i wonna help you but i can't if i don't know the problem. because of you i shut other ppl out. why do you make me feel bad about the person i am? one second i think you feel one way about me and the next idk anymore. i'm scared of the future. its all happening too fast and i dont want it to be over. i know you prolly think i'm a horrible person but i'm not. i'm scared if i believe you i'll get hurt? what are you REALLY after? sometimes i'm ashamed i was ever even friends with you. i don't talk much but i have a whooolllee lot to say. i try to give you hints but i dont think you see them. its like nobody knows. is there a way to not feel it anymore? i'll get out AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. i never realized how much i wanted to be close to you until now. and its too late. too late to look back and have memories. it was just as much my fault as it was yours. you balme it all on me but its ur fault too and you blow the whole thing outta proportion. who knows. cuz i sure don't. not anymore.
somethings gotta change. idk what but it aint workin. cant you see that? you don't respect me. all i'm here for is for you to bitch about everybody to. can't you see that i'm 15 and i can't take the weight of YOUR world on my shoulders. i promise i'm not NEAR as stronge as i make myself believe i am. why is it always everybody else, then me? i shouldn't have to remind myself to love you. you can't prevent me from making mistakes. maybe i want to make mistakes. maybe i want to learn and grow. i understand you're joking but sometimes the things you stay still hurt. sometimes idk if i can believe you or not? am i too nieve to see the truth? maybe i'm over reacting. why can't you ever talk to me? open up? i feel like ur hiding something from me. why can't it ever be just me and you? why can't it go back to how it was this time last year with us? please don't lie to me. don't say things just because you think they'll make me happy. oneday its gonna be too late. i'm not gonna wonna have real relationship with you but you'll want one with me. but i'm not as forgiving as i should be. i shouldn't be scared to ask you stuff. why can't you trust my judge of character? i know who i should be with and who i shouldn't. why can't you just come up and talk to me once? get to know me? give me a chance? maybe you should start seeing a pattern in the relationships with ppl you've had. maybe it isn't them. its you. my life can't revolve around you. i'm gonna make my decisions based on what i wonna do. not what pleases you. if you don't know the whole situation then don't get mad at me about it. if you wonna know then ask me. you have to realize that things can't stay the same forever. you HAVE TO BE WILLING TO CHANGE. i know stuff that you have no idea i know about you. i chose to not tell you. i chose to forget them. you should be happy for that. i make mistakes. get over it.i wonna help you but i can't if i don't know the problem. because of you i shut other ppl out. why do you make me feel bad about the person i am? one second i think you feel one way about me and the next idk anymore. i'm scared of the future. its all happening too fast and i dont want it to be over. i know you prolly think i'm a horrible person but i'm not. i'm scared if i believe you i'll get hurt? what are you REALLY after? sometimes i'm ashamed i was ever even friends with you. i don't talk much but i have a whooolllee lot to say. i try to give you hints but i dont think you see them. its like nobody knows. is there a way to not feel it anymore? i'll get out AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. i never realized how much i wanted to be close to you until now. and its too late. too late to look back and have memories. it was just as much my fault as it was yours. you balme it all on me but its ur fault too and you blow the whole thing outta proportion. who knows. cuz i sure don't. not anymore.