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ahhhhhhhh. it's the time i've been dreading for months now. the people who i've spent my whole summer with are leaving for college this week.. next week and the week after. how am i supposed to feel about that? i've been trying so hard to just not let it hit me till it happens but its hitting me all over the place. i'll be driving and listening to a song and it will just remind me that in a a few days i'm going to be the only person left here. everyone is moving on but me. i can't tell you how much that sucks. i don't want to have to say goodbye to the most amazing people in the whole world. lee is leaving on thursday and i'm going to say goodbye to her either today or tomorrow. HOW am i gonig to do that? hug her for as long as i can before i have to watch her leave and move onto her new life. and then do it all over again in 2 weeks when danny leaves. it hurts to even think about it. my eyes get all kinds of watery.
i don't want to say goodbye to the one person who knows me inside and out, the boy i spent the last 10 months with falling more and more in love with everyday. it's not fair and i don't want to do it. i'm so scared that things are going to change. sure we've fought.. a lot in the last few weeks but its normal and its going to happen. especially because we are both afraid of change and from not being with eachother as much as we are used to. it's going to be really hard. really really really hard. but we've already been through so much that i think we will be okay if we just don't give up. because i'm not going anywhere. i'm content with waiting on every break or weekend he can come home because seeing him a few times throughout the year is so much better than not being able to see him at all.
i'll wait because i'm in love with him and i won't let something like stupid college ruin the best thing i've ever had in my life.
i don't want to say goodbye to the one person who knows me inside and out, the boy i spent the last 10 months with falling more and more in love with everyday. it's not fair and i don't want to do it. i'm so scared that things are going to change. sure we've fought.. a lot in the last few weeks but its normal and its going to happen. especially because we are both afraid of change and from not being with eachother as much as we are used to. it's going to be really hard. really really really hard. but we've already been through so much that i think we will be okay if we just don't give up. because i'm not going anywhere. i'm content with waiting on every break or weekend he can come home because seeing him a few times throughout the year is so much better than not being able to see him at all.
i'll wait because i'm in love with him and i won't let something like stupid college ruin the best thing i've ever had in my life.