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So, my living situation is all fuckered up now. Dihoe, Dad and I got in a huge fight yesterday so I'm staying at Raine's for a couple days. Then Carolyn tells me that I should move in with her. I wouldn't mind that at all. In fact, I have more freedom over there and even though I would be sleeping on the floor all the time I really wouldn't mind it because I get the attention and support that I need. When I was over there last week Carolyn kept asking me, "Are you hungry?" or "Are you bored?" Sean didn't seem to mind either. We had a lot of fun, in my opinion. Besides, living with Carolyn is just what I want, right? I keep complaining about dad's house and how I would love to live with Carolyn or Lorraine and now I have the (almost) perfect opportunity to do so. I need to go get a job though because if I do move in with Carolyn and Sean I don't want to burden them financially as far as food and cigarettes and such.
I feel so abandoned though. Dad told me yesterday that no matter what he is going to take Diann's side over any of his kids. If Diann and I are fighting, no matter who is right or wrong he will take Diann's side. She is his top priority. That is so fucked up in my opinion. I mean, didn't he have a part in my creation? Aren't I his kid? Shouldn't he have loyalty to his children before any one else. He told me that in order to make a second marriage work you have to put your spouse ahead of everything else. Carolyn and Lorraine agreed with me that his idea is totally fucked up. Lorraine said that when you get married for the second time you have to find a spouse that is going to understand when you put your kids first not some whiny wench that is going to take control of every situation. Diann obviously wears the pants in that relationship!
I feel so abandoned though. Dad told me yesterday that no matter what he is going to take Diann's side over any of his kids. If Diann and I are fighting, no matter who is right or wrong he will take Diann's side. She is his top priority. That is so fucked up in my opinion. I mean, didn't he have a part in my creation? Aren't I his kid? Shouldn't he have loyalty to his children before any one else. He told me that in order to make a second marriage work you have to put your spouse ahead of everything else. Carolyn and Lorraine agreed with me that his idea is totally fucked up. Lorraine said that when you get married for the second time you have to find a spouse that is going to understand when you put your kids first not some whiny wench that is going to take control of every situation. Diann obviously wears the pants in that relationship!