Christian Spiritual Stuggles
Lord Jesus, the struggles I have on my mind, you already know about. I bring them to you they are about to drive me nuts! Should I be taking these classes, they are difficult I know and I do not expect simple or, easy. Yet, the evil one seems to make these unsure ideas pop in and out sometimes. Lord, I just need some kind of sign from You letting me know what I am doing is in line with the plans You have for my life. Is that too much to ask, Lord? The cost is tremendously expensive so, you can see the concerns in that area as well right now. But, I may have jump at this opportunity to go back to college without consulting in you before choosing the career path to take. . Moreover, cost is not the main concern for, you know my heart much better than even I could. My trust is in you, yet, that almost sounds stupid. For, if I did not trust I would not be where I am. You know I still miss driving the ‘big trucks’, It may just be the traveling, but, they sure are roomy and easily adaptable.
Lord even sleep is a mess, for, you are aware of that too. One day it is up all night a few days later; like now; it is trying to get back to the ’norm’ of up days and nights sleep. But, one small sound just prior to falling asleep…boom..I am up for awhile, like now! So where will we begin, Lord? Show me, please. I am barely making an ‘A’ in class, it would not take much to drop when I am required in attendance 5 days a week, 4 essay’s, and 20+ posts per week, times 2 classes. Gee, it is obvious why the days and nights get screwed up, hmmm…I have a final essay=1/3 of my grade, due Friday and I have not even begun, except the article which I need to read up on. I think I am not doing so good in class, Help know the answer to that question by the grades I receive this week, Lord. I know I ask a lot even putting out the fleece, but I must know Lord. I must if I am to do the best I can and continue without hesitations or doubts.
Lord it is not just school, you know. It is also, Bob’s trainee is getting off the truck; he needs a new trainee if we are to make it through the winter in this home, or will we be losing it? We still have some debt, not nearly as much as we had 3 months ago; including medical bills. Lord if we lose this home…find us a new one before this one goes into repo. Moreover, both Bob and I know beyond a shadow it was your choice for us. Prepare for Bob’s next trainee when he gets to Springfield, MO after this load is delivered. Only If this be Thy perfect plan and will for us. Otherwise close the doors completely, this playing around is getting real old, for me anyway. Bob seems to think we can hang on forever indebted to the company, not I. It is not Your way to do things, Lord. We both know that, I just do not understand his reasoning.
Lord Jesus my fleece is out….the rest is up to You, Your plans are made perfect.
Make me a blessing this day, Lord Jesus to someone, I pray! And may my life be an example to others in all I do and say.
For even a Christian has struggles, but the Lord gets them through, for I confide in my God and Savior Jesus Christ. The One that has counted every hair upon my head and cares for the things I care about whether they are large as some might call them or trivial as some might describe some. Nevertheless, one day I will no longer struggle with the things of this earth, Praise the Lord, I shall see Jesus when I have finished my work here, until then. I shall confide in my Lord! King of Kings, Lord of Lords! Praise You King Jesus, Thank you for saving my soul and calling me friend. I love you , Lord Jesus! Come Lord Jesus, Come!