i'm not full of shit
there's nothing more than a good mystery. something to figure out.
but where's my mystery? i never just disappear. someone always knows where i am and people try so hard to find out every little thing i do, and when they can't uncover anything juicy....they just make up shit. its getting damn old.
the fact remains that i AM an open book. nothing's secret (unless its told me that way). its a fuckin blessing to others and a curse to me.
having others make me into a person that i'm not, simply because they won't talk to me face to face, is pretty fuckin shitty, too. AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! all the shit talking in recent weeks has really taken its toll on me. i'm in a constant state of confusion, which leads to frustration. it makes me restless. i can't sleep at night, but i want to do nothing but nap all day. i can't eat right. i can't even think straight half the time. all i wanna do is shit i know won't help. i'm tempted to call/text/or use some other form of impersonal communication just so he knows my side of things. i can't stop thinking about him and why the fuck shit is so messed up over something so small and meaningless. and just when i stop thinking about him for a second he's right in front of my face. looking at me like I DID EVERYTHING WRONG. and why? it was nothing. i let people get to me and it sucks. FUCK IT!!!
time to hide.........no matter how hard it is
but where's my mystery? i never just disappear. someone always knows where i am and people try so hard to find out every little thing i do, and when they can't uncover anything juicy....they just make up shit. its getting damn old.
the fact remains that i AM an open book. nothing's secret (unless its told me that way). its a fuckin blessing to others and a curse to me.
having others make me into a person that i'm not, simply because they won't talk to me face to face, is pretty fuckin shitty, too. AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! all the shit talking in recent weeks has really taken its toll on me. i'm in a constant state of confusion, which leads to frustration. it makes me restless. i can't sleep at night, but i want to do nothing but nap all day. i can't eat right. i can't even think straight half the time. all i wanna do is shit i know won't help. i'm tempted to call/text/or use some other form of impersonal communication just so he knows my side of things. i can't stop thinking about him and why the fuck shit is so messed up over something so small and meaningless. and just when i stop thinking about him for a second he's right in front of my face. looking at me like I DID EVERYTHING WRONG. and why? it was nothing. i let people get to me and it sucks. FUCK IT!!!
time to hide.........no matter how hard it is