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So yeah. In two months that I've been going back out I've gotten TOTALLY bored with Little Rock. I'm on probation in two jurisdictions (pause: this sounds BAD) for loitering (pause: this sounds LAME) and the cops have become massively abundant lately.
It's like, when I quit giving a shit about what other people thought and did to me, I think I quit giving a shit about what people see of me besides my personality and who I am inside. The small get-togethers we do like going to IHOP and going to the Looney Bin is good enough for me. I go eat with Chris and Evan and those people, playing mini-golf -- whatever. That's like the top for me -- and I'm content as hell with that. It's good stuff. Paige was hanging all over me tonight and normally I'd be like "that's damn cool." but why let some cocktease girl hang all over you when you're not even interested in her??? Oh, she was drunk, too.
Please don't mistake boredness for unhappyness. That's not it. I'm very happy with how things are going. Throw a good girlfriend in the mix and I think I'd be in heaven. Literally! For once I think I'm healthy enough to enter a relationship and it's getting about time. It's just I have this routine with school and work and I hardly do anything worth doing except on the weekends and even that's random and sketchy.
It's ok, though. All in time.
But tomorrow night -- I break away from the routine. I'm going to Conway tomorrow night for Manda's party. They're having some UCA friends over with I guess other friends of theirs. I don't think I'll know anyone there, except for the two Manda's but I'm pretty sure it'll be ok.
It's like, when I quit giving a shit about what other people thought and did to me, I think I quit giving a shit about what people see of me besides my personality and who I am inside. The small get-togethers we do like going to IHOP and going to the Looney Bin is good enough for me. I go eat with Chris and Evan and those people, playing mini-golf -- whatever. That's like the top for me -- and I'm content as hell with that. It's good stuff. Paige was hanging all over me tonight and normally I'd be like "that's damn cool." but why let some cocktease girl hang all over you when you're not even interested in her??? Oh, she was drunk, too.
Please don't mistake boredness for unhappyness. That's not it. I'm very happy with how things are going. Throw a good girlfriend in the mix and I think I'd be in heaven. Literally! For once I think I'm healthy enough to enter a relationship and it's getting about time. It's just I have this routine with school and work and I hardly do anything worth doing except on the weekends and even that's random and sketchy.
It's ok, though. All in time.
But tomorrow night -- I break away from the routine. I'm going to Conway tomorrow night for Manda's party. They're having some UCA friends over with I guess other friends of theirs. I don't think I'll know anyone there, except for the two Manda's but I'm pretty sure it'll be ok.