Farewell
This is the last journal entry. I am closing this and moving to kenchanghayo
It'll be public
Um, just so you know, you can add my new journal but you dont' have to because I'm not adding any of yours. Its not that I don't care about you guys. It's that I feel I need to start over fresh and just concentrate on what is really important to everyone and that is success and making the bling.
I'm leaving Guam. I'm not telling anyone when and I'm not telling anyone where. Lets just say, I won't leave until the semester is over and I'm not gonna go to Seattle. Thank you everyone for reading my long, depressing entries and always commenting. I appreciate that effort especially since i hardly reply to any of yours.. even though i read all of your entries.
I guess. I guess right now is just the time to stop lying to myself. To stop thinking that kindness and being genuine is what gets people what they want in this world. I wish it was so. But I know its not. I wanted to think differently when Rama was giving me the lecture on it a few days ago but the more I think about it the more right I realize he is. I'll never amount to someone who has more than me. I hate that feeling. I hate being unworthy. More than anything else, I just want people to sacrifice for me. That isn't gonna come.
best luck to all of you in your futures. And I hope one day that when someone brings up my name to you, you won't say "he's a nice, passionate guy." but you'll say, "he learned what it took to be successful and now he's happy."
-because, although we all want the nice person, we really just need the successful one.
-Ken-
It'll be public
Um, just so you know, you can add my new journal but you dont' have to because I'm not adding any of yours. Its not that I don't care about you guys. It's that I feel I need to start over fresh and just concentrate on what is really important to everyone and that is success and making the bling.
I'm leaving Guam. I'm not telling anyone when and I'm not telling anyone where. Lets just say, I won't leave until the semester is over and I'm not gonna go to Seattle. Thank you everyone for reading my long, depressing entries and always commenting. I appreciate that effort especially since i hardly reply to any of yours.. even though i read all of your entries.
I guess. I guess right now is just the time to stop lying to myself. To stop thinking that kindness and being genuine is what gets people what they want in this world. I wish it was so. But I know its not. I wanted to think differently when Rama was giving me the lecture on it a few days ago but the more I think about it the more right I realize he is. I'll never amount to someone who has more than me. I hate that feeling. I hate being unworthy. More than anything else, I just want people to sacrifice for me. That isn't gonna come.
best luck to all of you in your futures. And I hope one day that when someone brings up my name to you, you won't say "he's a nice, passionate guy." but you'll say, "he learned what it took to be successful and now he's happy."
-because, although we all want the nice person, we really just need the successful one.
-Ken-