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This is my post while I'm not hideously depress (not the same as faking it, just remembering I should also post on good days.) And by the way before I begin, tennemouse, marlianna, and Adam I love you all so much thanks for being there, it means alot to me. The rest of you guy, not saying I don't love you to, it's just they helped when I needed it. And Alex thanks also, but see you're a bastard, but deep down you're a decent guy and a credit to your gender. [insert lots of hugs all around here]
Alright now that that is done on with the nondepressed posting. Today was a pretty good day. Did the normal basic stuff. Still went passing the whole day which means I haven't used a male presentation since wednesday two weeks ago. I mean I didn't particularily intend to go full time, just each morning I've been getting up and saying to myself sure it'd be simpler to pretend to be a guy but I want to be myself and people who don't like what I'm trying to do, well they're poop heads anyways. So anyways I was still feeling icky and exposed and worried so I tried to find Luke who's incharge of LGBT rights here, I just wanted advice how to handle it though technically he's also who I should report the hate-crime to though it hardly warants a police report since thankfully it didn't escalate past general stupidity. Anyways his office was closed so I hit some homework in the IEEE lounge since the SWE lounge had closed. The I chatted with marlianna and well she's one smart girl so she had good perspective and I got back myself. Then I had to get to the undergrad office to drop off a paper before it closed, then it was time for gaming club and that was good. Played spit with Carla who's nice and then Amanda kept glancing at me and smiling which was kinda weird in the sort of whats going on here are you flirting with me because I thought you weren't in the dating pool and well I wouldn't mind but I'm not exactly looking right now. Nope she liked my shirt yays. And then Jessica I think is her name but I don't remember because she doesn't come very regularly asked about the prostetics which was fine. She's not a busty girl, but she looks nice in an approachable sort of way, but maybe she needs to feel sexy sometimes. Everyone should get to feel sexy sometimes. And I walked back with company part ways but still I'm not giving in to the bad people (even though that's not the advice I got.) I need to be and I'm not going to stop being because of some neanderthal pig-men.
And now
Stolen from porterbasieumi
1) Fifth grade teacher's name?
Mrs. Jennings...i think
2) Last words you said?
Bye bye, thanks.
3) Last song you sang?
Morisette-You Learn
4) Last person you hugged?
Kyle...*sigh*
5) Last time you cried?
Start of this post out of the 'I love my friends for their being there for me'-ness
6) Last time you said I don't remember?
Would you believe I don't remember? Oh and does that count?
7) Last thing you ate?
English muffin with cream cheese
8) What color is the floor in your room?
Creamy dark tan
9) What color socks are you wearing?
Were white now I have naked feet
10) What's under your bed right now?
A cord and a plastic bag
11) What time did you wake up today?
9am
12) Current taste?
Um potatoy oniony? Cause thats the most residual things I ate recently and it's not like I'll be kissing anyone anyways. Or at least I think they mean what am I tasting now.
13) Current hair color?
Golden Brown or Very-dark Blonde
14) Current favorite band?
Garbage I guess since I just discovered their transpositiveness and thats the awesome.
15) Current annoyance?
Men who suck.
16) Current thing you want to eat?
Chocolate
17) Current desktop background?
The moon.
18) Current worry?
Finding a job for the summer
19) Current hate?
Bigotry gah bigots are just horrible people
20) Current favorite brand of clothing?
don't have one
21) Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex?
Buh does that mean men or women? Shoulder and hair respectively.
22) Last CD that you listened to?
No idea
23) Favorite place to be?
even ground with other people so we can be company for each other and be nice.
24) Least favorite place?
Center of attention infront of people who don't understand and hate.
25) Time you wake up in the morning?
9am...didn't i already answer this
26) Time you get home from school?
tonight that was 12:10
27) Favorite color?
Amathyst okay fine purple
28) Do you believe in an afterlife?
Not really but even if there were heaven/hell I don't care about being punished for what I do in life I need to do the right thing for myself. I'd rather be a good person burning in hell than an evil person relaxing in heaven.
29) Do you believe in God?
yes but probably not the God you'd be familiar with and generally I favor Goddess since thats how I personify the abstract force of existance.
30) Current favorite word/saying?
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend.
31) Favorite book?
I don't know too many to choose from.
33) what is on your bed at the moment?
Laundry I should be folding since it just came out.
35) Where do you want to go to College?
UMD
36) What do you want to be when you grow up?
Myself, an Engineer, a woman, a mother
37) How many kids do you want?
two or three, but none at the moment.
38) Been drunk?
Once, not to the point of a hangover, and it took alot of alcohol thus that'd be expensive so meh w/e
39) Said "I love you" and meant it?
Um many many times love is infinite not bound to one person or romantic feeling and certainly not to sexuality, though yeah I've loved and said so when I felt all three.
40) Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird.etc?
yeah sword-tails are so arguementative with their swiming arround a fish tank. (I want a kitty)
41) Been to New York?
Yes <3 the Met. Yay lots O' Art
42) Been to Maine?
Never stayed but yes in passing.
43) Been to California?
No
44) Been to Hawaii?
No but seems like it'd be fun.
45) Been to Mexico?
Not since I was a baby unless you count flying over it.
46) Been to India?
No
47) Been to France?
No
48) Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?
Dreamed I got up took some pills I take each morning woke up realized I couldn't have actually done that since I never went back to bed yet woke up. Took said pills saw a komono dragon wandering in the hall, woke up wondered if I'd taken the pills or not went back to bed woke up... After a while I decided it was safer not to take them since overdosing was worse than missing a dose.
49) Have you ever made out with anyone who didn't speak ANY english?
No
54) Worst feeling in the world?
Inability to help at all
55) What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
urgh mfng hrphm eghpuh
56) How many rings before you answer the phone?
Usually twice
59) Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
Not usually
68) What are you most scared of?
Losing people.
69) How do you want to die?
Contentedly
70) Who is the last person that you called?
Mom but I should've called porterbasieumi today
71) Where do you want to get married?
I'd worry more about the people than the place.
72) If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?
Oh sex would be so very tempting but I'd fix my intelligence because then I'd be able to contribute more to society and not be such a dependent.
73) Who do you hate?
Bigots I said that.
74) Been in a swimming pool?
Not recently enough.
75) Are you timely or always late?
usually late
76) Do you have pets?
no *sigh* I want a kitty.
77) Do you like being around people?
Yes
78) Best feeling in the world?
Mutual love
79) Are you for world peace?
Under my absolute tyrannical rulership yes of course (he he or even not)
80) Are you a health freak?
Not, though I guess I do healthy things already. Hate elevators.
81) Do you have a "Type" of person you always go for?
Yes sort of there are traits I like which sometimes are contradictory but yeah theres attributes I go for I guess thats a type.
82) Do you like somebody right now?
No I like several people right now. I won't be limited to loving one person, thats crazy.
83) Does anybody like u right now?
Um I hope maybe probably wish some other people did to but yeah.
84) Ever afraid you'll never get married?
No, my worth is not determined by who I can attract.
85) Do you want to get married?
Maybe
86) Do you want kids?
Yes and thats the best argument I have for marriage.
87) If you could have a conversation with anybody in the world, alive or deceased and without language barriers, who would you talk to?
Hello God it's me Eve. WHAT WERE YOU THINKING???
Alright now that that is done on with the nondepressed posting. Today was a pretty good day. Did the normal basic stuff. Still went passing the whole day which means I haven't used a male presentation since wednesday two weeks ago. I mean I didn't particularily intend to go full time, just each morning I've been getting up and saying to myself sure it'd be simpler to pretend to be a guy but I want to be myself and people who don't like what I'm trying to do, well they're poop heads anyways. So anyways I was still feeling icky and exposed and worried so I tried to find Luke who's incharge of LGBT rights here, I just wanted advice how to handle it though technically he's also who I should report the hate-crime to though it hardly warants a police report since thankfully it didn't escalate past general stupidity. Anyways his office was closed so I hit some homework in the IEEE lounge since the SWE lounge had closed. The I chatted with marlianna and well she's one smart girl so she had good perspective and I got back myself. Then I had to get to the undergrad office to drop off a paper before it closed, then it was time for gaming club and that was good. Played spit with Carla who's nice and then Amanda kept glancing at me and smiling which was kinda weird in the sort of whats going on here are you flirting with me because I thought you weren't in the dating pool and well I wouldn't mind but I'm not exactly looking right now. Nope she liked my shirt yays. And then Jessica I think is her name but I don't remember because she doesn't come very regularly asked about the prostetics which was fine. She's not a busty girl, but she looks nice in an approachable sort of way, but maybe she needs to feel sexy sometimes. Everyone should get to feel sexy sometimes. And I walked back with company part ways but still I'm not giving in to the bad people (even though that's not the advice I got.) I need to be and I'm not going to stop being because of some neanderthal pig-men.
And now
Stolen from porterbasieumi
1) Fifth grade teacher's name?
Mrs. Jennings...i think
2) Last words you said?
Bye bye, thanks.
3) Last song you sang?
Morisette-You Learn
4) Last person you hugged?
Kyle...*sigh*
5) Last time you cried?
Start of this post out of the 'I love my friends for their being there for me'-ness
6) Last time you said I don't remember?
Would you believe I don't remember? Oh and does that count?
7) Last thing you ate?
English muffin with cream cheese
8) What color is the floor in your room?
Creamy dark tan
9) What color socks are you wearing?
Were white now I have naked feet
10) What's under your bed right now?
A cord and a plastic bag
11) What time did you wake up today?
9am
12) Current taste?
Um potatoy oniony? Cause thats the most residual things I ate recently and it's not like I'll be kissing anyone anyways. Or at least I think they mean what am I tasting now.
13) Current hair color?
Golden Brown or Very-dark Blonde
14) Current favorite band?
Garbage I guess since I just discovered their transpositiveness and thats the awesome.
15) Current annoyance?
Men who suck.
16) Current thing you want to eat?
Chocolate
17) Current desktop background?
The moon.
18) Current worry?
Finding a job for the summer
19) Current hate?
Bigotry gah bigots are just horrible people
20) Current favorite brand of clothing?
don't have one
21) Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex?
Buh does that mean men or women? Shoulder and hair respectively.
22) Last CD that you listened to?
No idea
23) Favorite place to be?
even ground with other people so we can be company for each other and be nice.
24) Least favorite place?
Center of attention infront of people who don't understand and hate.
25) Time you wake up in the morning?
9am...didn't i already answer this
26) Time you get home from school?
tonight that was 12:10
27) Favorite color?
Amathyst okay fine purple
28) Do you believe in an afterlife?
Not really but even if there were heaven/hell I don't care about being punished for what I do in life I need to do the right thing for myself. I'd rather be a good person burning in hell than an evil person relaxing in heaven.
29) Do you believe in God?
yes but probably not the God you'd be familiar with and generally I favor Goddess since thats how I personify the abstract force of existance.
30) Current favorite word/saying?
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend.
31) Favorite book?
I don't know too many to choose from.
33) what is on your bed at the moment?
Laundry I should be folding since it just came out.
35) Where do you want to go to College?
UMD
36) What do you want to be when you grow up?
Myself, an Engineer, a woman, a mother
37) How many kids do you want?
two or three, but none at the moment.
38) Been drunk?
Once, not to the point of a hangover, and it took alot of alcohol thus that'd be expensive so meh w/e
39) Said "I love you" and meant it?
Um many many times love is infinite not bound to one person or romantic feeling and certainly not to sexuality, though yeah I've loved and said so when I felt all three.
40) Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird.etc?
yeah sword-tails are so arguementative with their swiming arround a fish tank. (I want a kitty)
41) Been to New York?
Yes <3 the Met. Yay lots O' Art
42) Been to Maine?
Never stayed but yes in passing.
43) Been to California?
No
44) Been to Hawaii?
No but seems like it'd be fun.
45) Been to Mexico?
Not since I was a baby unless you count flying over it.
46) Been to India?
No
47) Been to France?
No
48) Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?
Dreamed I got up took some pills I take each morning woke up realized I couldn't have actually done that since I never went back to bed yet woke up. Took said pills saw a komono dragon wandering in the hall, woke up wondered if I'd taken the pills or not went back to bed woke up... After a while I decided it was safer not to take them since overdosing was worse than missing a dose.
49) Have you ever made out with anyone who didn't speak ANY english?
No
54) Worst feeling in the world?
Inability to help at all
55) What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
urgh mfng hrphm eghpuh
56) How many rings before you answer the phone?
Usually twice
59) Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
Not usually
68) What are you most scared of?
Losing people.
69) How do you want to die?
Contentedly
70) Who is the last person that you called?
Mom but I should've called porterbasieumi today
71) Where do you want to get married?
I'd worry more about the people than the place.
72) If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?
Oh sex would be so very tempting but I'd fix my intelligence because then I'd be able to contribute more to society and not be such a dependent.
73) Who do you hate?
Bigots I said that.
74) Been in a swimming pool?
Not recently enough.
75) Are you timely or always late?
usually late
76) Do you have pets?
no *sigh* I want a kitty.
77) Do you like being around people?
Yes
78) Best feeling in the world?
Mutual love
79) Are you for world peace?
Under my absolute tyrannical rulership yes of course (he he or even not)
80) Are you a health freak?
Not, though I guess I do healthy things already. Hate elevators.
81) Do you have a "Type" of person you always go for?
Yes sort of there are traits I like which sometimes are contradictory but yeah theres attributes I go for I guess thats a type.
82) Do you like somebody right now?
No I like several people right now. I won't be limited to loving one person, thats crazy.
83) Does anybody like u right now?
Um I hope maybe probably wish some other people did to but yeah.
84) Ever afraid you'll never get married?
No, my worth is not determined by who I can attract.
85) Do you want to get married?
Maybe
86) Do you want kids?
Yes and thats the best argument I have for marriage.
87) If you could have a conversation with anybody in the world, alive or deceased and without language barriers, who would you talk to?
Hello God it's me Eve. WHAT WERE YOU THINKING???