I am Jack's Emo blog
Have you ever said to yourself "Why am I me?" Like.. why did God put your soul in this body.. and in this place.. why you are feeling the way you feel. You just feel generally WEIRD in your own body. Or sometimes do you wonder if all of your life is real? Or when you look at it in that sense, how do you even define reality?
I sometimes get that feeling.
Whenever I'm bummed out, I end up asking myself really odd questions like that. I end up thinking to myself "Why do I even get upset like this?" I am less than a peice of dirt in the entire universe and whatever I'm feeling, thinking, or doing is not going to make an impact on anything. It's kind of a depressing thing to say, but it is the truth. And it's strangely relieving to think to myself that I am ME and that no matter what I do, good or bad, it's not going to make a significant mark in history. If I want to leave VCU and go get a certificate in something less grand, it is LITERALLY not the end of the world. All the stresses I feel are nothing compared to other people in the world. I have no time to spend my life in constant turmoil. I never know what day is going to be my last.
I am only 19 years old.
I have become bitter. I have become unstable. I have become irrational.
It's time for things to change.
I don't know how much longer God has given me to be on this Earth. But from now until I have to have this conversation with myself again (and hopefully for better reasons), I'm going to live my life as peacefully as I can. I'm going to take each day at a time and really appreciate the things that are important in my own little world.
I sometimes get that feeling.
Whenever I'm bummed out, I end up asking myself really odd questions like that. I end up thinking to myself "Why do I even get upset like this?" I am less than a peice of dirt in the entire universe and whatever I'm feeling, thinking, or doing is not going to make an impact on anything. It's kind of a depressing thing to say, but it is the truth. And it's strangely relieving to think to myself that I am ME and that no matter what I do, good or bad, it's not going to make a significant mark in history. If I want to leave VCU and go get a certificate in something less grand, it is LITERALLY not the end of the world. All the stresses I feel are nothing compared to other people in the world. I have no time to spend my life in constant turmoil. I never know what day is going to be my last.
I am only 19 years old.
I have become bitter. I have become unstable. I have become irrational.
It's time for things to change.
I don't know how much longer God has given me to be on this Earth. But from now until I have to have this conversation with myself again (and hopefully for better reasons), I'm going to live my life as peacefully as I can. I'm going to take each day at a time and really appreciate the things that are important in my own little world.