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well this week was going perfect.
so, i talk to chris a lot...interesting conversations. at least those can make me smile at this time.
I also got to chill with dustin yesterday. that was fun too. i need to do that again.
sorry, i always do this...find a way to make all the good things seem little and the bad things the main point of everything....well you all are going to have to deal with it. i've never dealt with death.
my grandpa is dying. i haven't seen him since i was 10 and i may not ever see him again. 6 weeks ago he slipped and fell of some ice, cracking some stuff in his back. the doctors missed it and then he bacame parelized from the chest down. while in the hospital he got pnemonia making him ever more sick.
then this morning my dad calls....apperently my grandpa should've died last night, but he's barely alive.
then i go to access my hotmail that i e-mail and saved all the e-mail my grandpa sent me....FUCK YOU HOTMAIL! they erased everything.......
i'm probably flying out tomorrow to oklahoma to spend time with him....at least i hope too. but yeah...sorry, i'm gonna have to do a raincheck for your show dustin and a raincheck for a wedding.
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I remeber how he used to smell like tobacco from smoking his pipe
I remember seeing him outside my window and tripping down the stairs to see him
I remember every christmas opening a letter with a $50 check and a little peice of paper saying merry chistmas
I remember when i was 10, and i went down to oklahoma to see him. i got on the plane to go thinking i'll see him in 2 more years...
everything cut short
10 minutes after posting this...my dad called. earlier i was telling him how i was ready to go, catch a flight alone and just go see my grandpa one last time. then he just started crying.
The funeral will be in the middle of next week. so i'll be gone then, not this weekend.
i guess it's better this way. what fun is living life when all you can do is move your arms and neck. i just wanted to say goodbye...
I'll be home all day...so if anyone wants to, give me a call. a friendly voice is something i need.
so, i talk to chris a lot...interesting conversations. at least those can make me smile at this time.
I also got to chill with dustin yesterday. that was fun too. i need to do that again.
sorry, i always do this...find a way to make all the good things seem little and the bad things the main point of everything....well you all are going to have to deal with it. i've never dealt with death.
my grandpa is dying. i haven't seen him since i was 10 and i may not ever see him again. 6 weeks ago he slipped and fell of some ice, cracking some stuff in his back. the doctors missed it and then he bacame parelized from the chest down. while in the hospital he got pnemonia making him ever more sick.
then this morning my dad calls....apperently my grandpa should've died last night, but he's barely alive.
then i go to access my hotmail that i e-mail and saved all the e-mail my grandpa sent me....FUCK YOU HOTMAIL! they erased everything.......
i'm probably flying out tomorrow to oklahoma to spend time with him....at least i hope too. but yeah...sorry, i'm gonna have to do a raincheck for your show dustin and a raincheck for a wedding.
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I remeber how he used to smell like tobacco from smoking his pipe
I remember seeing him outside my window and tripping down the stairs to see him
I remember every christmas opening a letter with a $50 check and a little peice of paper saying merry chistmas
I remember when i was 10, and i went down to oklahoma to see him. i got on the plane to go thinking i'll see him in 2 more years...
everything cut short
10 minutes after posting this...my dad called. earlier i was telling him how i was ready to go, catch a flight alone and just go see my grandpa one last time. then he just started crying.
The funeral will be in the middle of next week. so i'll be gone then, not this weekend.
i guess it's better this way. what fun is living life when all you can do is move your arms and neck. i just wanted to say goodbye...
I'll be home all day...so if anyone wants to, give me a call. a friendly voice is something i need.