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well i had a blast in maine. there was so many good days. after maine the fireworks and other nights were all so much fun. yesterday was the 8 month anniversary for me and ryan. all the guys came back today which made me so happy caused i missed ryan so much.
then i came to a realization that next month i'm leaving for college. with this i wont' be seeing ryan except on the weekends. during his camping trip i realized how hard it will be to not see him for five days every week. one week was hard, i can't imagine more. it's going to be so hard but so worth it. and it sucks cause i can't see any of my friends which the majority i just started to hang out with this year. and i can't see my best friend maya which it's just going to suck not seeing maya forever. i know i'm probably going to get wicked homesick and i just wish that i was going to be a senior this year and i wasn't going to graduate and go to college for another year. or i wish i could just take a year off and work full time then next year when everyone went i would be going too. and it makes me sad to think i'll be leaving from all the people i love and who make me the happiest. it makes me sad to know everything is going to change in a month. i would give so much if it would just stay the same.
then i came to a realization that next month i'm leaving for college. with this i wont' be seeing ryan except on the weekends. during his camping trip i realized how hard it will be to not see him for five days every week. one week was hard, i can't imagine more. it's going to be so hard but so worth it. and it sucks cause i can't see any of my friends which the majority i just started to hang out with this year. and i can't see my best friend maya which it's just going to suck not seeing maya forever. i know i'm probably going to get wicked homesick and i just wish that i was going to be a senior this year and i wasn't going to graduate and go to college for another year. or i wish i could just take a year off and work full time then next year when everyone went i would be going too. and it makes me sad to think i'll be leaving from all the people i love and who make me the happiest. it makes me sad to know everything is going to change in a month. i would give so much if it would just stay the same.