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So here's something sad. I was inspired by Alia's update to look back at the entry one year ago today.. but sadly..it was eerily the same feelings as I am having today. Shouldn't I have grown up in a year, at all? Shouldn't I have gotten past certain obstacles.. overcame certain feelings..shouldn't I be stronger, more confident, and self sufficient?
Well, I now have proof that the answer to all these questions are no.
Summertime should be happy.. but i feel so alone and forgotten. I miss Kathleen. Really miss her. if I think about her too hard I start to cry - so I musn't dwell on it.. but I do. Miss her like hell.
Sarasota seems to be my home for the next two years.. no college for me. At least no exciting college. I am stuck. Stuck in all the mess, in all the festering drama and unhappiness.. among people whom, yes, I love - but I need something new. New people, new faces, new AIR for goodness sakes.
I think I'm visiting Kath next week... that should be fun. I want to be wildly ridiculous.. and just forget about everything.
Payton is complaining about the typing... he's trying to sleep. So I guess I'll stop complaining...no use anyway.
Well, I now have proof that the answer to all these questions are no.
Summertime should be happy.. but i feel so alone and forgotten. I miss Kathleen. Really miss her. if I think about her too hard I start to cry - so I musn't dwell on it.. but I do. Miss her like hell.
Sarasota seems to be my home for the next two years.. no college for me. At least no exciting college. I am stuck. Stuck in all the mess, in all the festering drama and unhappiness.. among people whom, yes, I love - but I need something new. New people, new faces, new AIR for goodness sakes.
I think I'm visiting Kath next week... that should be fun. I want to be wildly ridiculous.. and just forget about everything.
Payton is complaining about the typing... he's trying to sleep. So I guess I'll stop complaining...no use anyway.