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And I think that maybe, we aren’t scared because the thought of failure, but the thought of leaving everything behind that has brought us to this point in our lives. Maybe the heart wrenching pain we feel in our minds and in our heats, the lump in our throats is the result of realizing that after all these years, we finally have to let go. We have to let go of the people who we have grown up with and known our whole lives, the people who know us better than anyone will, the people who know us more than we know ourselves. The people who have been there with us from the beginning, and who have gone through every bump in the road along the way, right there together. This feeling is the end of the beginning; the end of everything we have known and grown accustomed to for so many years, and this means leaving everything familiar behind. Letting go of the past and saying hello to the rest of our lives. This feeling we have is called scared. Scared to death that nothing will ever be the same. That as soon as we walked off of that stage holding the rolled up piece of paper we had been dying to get for so long, everything changed. For all our lives, this year was what we had been looking forward to. Our whole lives had been preparation for this year, when we would graduate from being learning students to becoming alumni and experiencing ‘real life’. All these years we have been saying "I cannot wait until I get out of here" and now that the time is here, we have suddenly become statues, unwilling to leave behind this comfort zone that we have called home for so many years. This is the end of the beginning.