all kinds of discontent

[kendrawesome]

So I've been sick.. but I'm feeling better, but still a bit congested.

Once again I am living my life waiting for a day that is not today. Not tomorrow. Not next week.
I dream of fantasy worlds where everything is easy and just being held is all that I need.
That pillow brings me into a whirl of happiness. Of content.

But these days just drag on with the same old bullshit.
I want so much to just flip everything upside down.
but I just can't get past my fears of change. 
I'm stuck with this monotony.

I need a goddamn hobby.