Does that look right to you?

[kendra_on_mars]

Wow. I wonder when I'm going to decide that I've wasted enough of my life on this. You know the worst part... I'm not surprised. Also, I don't think I care. Whether this is a good sign or bad sign depends on how you look at it. For me I think its a good sign. Now I need to find my balls. Has anyone seen them? Although I have to admit I'm up against a very crafty foe who is manipulative, knows my weaknesses and is not afraid to fight dirty. I guess I just need to be able to get the shit kicked out of me. Wow, I really don't want to do that. Maybe if I can just time it right...

*giant sigh followed by many swears*

I mean seriously.... why am I still here? Brian said it was because I'm weak... which is true I guess... weak, scared... ARGH. I want to kick many things right now. I want to kick them right through my third story window.

I really just want to be free... just be able to make a bad decision or two... I'm not ready for such a serious thing... there is way too much stress and not enough fun... I want to have some fun